Ramadhan is over,Syawal kicks in...

Raya Idulfitri already gone.Many many months passes by slowly but surely...I am still patiently waiting for the moment to come..The time when you and I will be together again..I cant hardly wait any longer..hopefully this time around, you would be able to come out easily and headed straight to your destination.When...only Allah swt knows when this is going to happen...I am very bored and felt very lonely without your presence.Nothing is the same...I make dua every single day and night praying that we would meet in a better place and in a better condition.May Allah swt granted our dua,ameen

i felt today is the worst day of my working life..the fact is i dont have anything at all to do...no job for me to tackle...so...i think this is the best time for me to write and update my blog again.i really dont know what to do now...just now,i felt so sleepy...what else can i do now...even remy is not helping me much..sh

Headache due to straining of eyes

My left eye is sick due to too much straining...causing me severe headache on my left side of my forehead.I dont know how to treat this sickness.It happens many times....
Managed to skype with Akajon at 8 am this morning...Nothing much that I learnt from him.Hope,he could be travelling soon before the ramadhan month kicks in...I miss you Akajon...

A Day for laziness

Nothing interesting going on today.lots of time idling watching tv, sleeping and eating.sent sms to akajon.He's ok,alhamdulillah.Insya'allah ,he plans to go Karshi to check on his application.I make dua for him..May Allah swt make it happen for him to leave his country soon and headed straight to Dubai,ameen

I am bored

I am feeling very bored today.No news from Akajon since yesterday.I have been sending smes to him with no reply whatsoever.Dont know for sure what's really happening to him right now....I am sad .....very sad indeed

Silent Killer

I really dont understand why you chose to be silent.Am I not still you wife in the eyes of Allah swt??....???????Perhaps now you prefer to stay single..Tell me Akajon...what do you really want in your life??
I am all alone here..I must keep on going .May Allah swt protect us and guide us to the right path,ameen.How long more do I have to go through this pain and agony...?You are killing me bit by bit...

Musibah Day

 Hana bike was stolen yesterday afternoon around 3.30pm.I was very sad.Even sadder when my smses was not replied by Akajon.I dont know what happened to him.Today also no news from him...Perhaps he has written me  off from his heart....Allahu'alam.I dont want to think much about it now..It's too complicated and messy...

Five months passes by....

What can I say.What can I do..wait and keep on waiting until Allah wills it...I can only hope that we would be together again.I dont know why my heart and soul is not letting you go..I already sacrifice ally my time ,money,and energy for you.I hope it would be worth the wait..May Allah swt make  both of us stronger in faith,ameen.Only Allah swt knows what  that I conceal in my breast.

Interview Day and Confusing Day

At 3pm,I went for job interview at Anis Pharmacy nearby .I am still waiting for Onajon to reply to my emails or at least sent me sms, but till this time no news from him whatsoever.I dont know whether to feel sad or just couldnt be bothered with the current situation.I am a bit confused right now.So, I take it,no news is good news...

Allahu'alam

Friday April 1 2011

[4/5/2011 1:03:40 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Assalamualaikum
[4/5/2011 1:03:49 PM] ummuhanna1: assalamualaikum
[4/5/2011 1:03:59 PM] ummuhanna1: walalikumsalam
[4/5/2011 1:04:05 PM] ummuhanna1: u ok?
[4/5/2011 1:04:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im ok
[4/5/2011 1:04:19 PM] ummuhanna1: u read my emails
[4/5/2011 1:04:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: h r u?
[4/5/2011 1:04:25 PM] ummuhanna1: im fine
[4/5/2011 1:04:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im reading it now
[4/5/2011 1:04:34 PM] ummuhanna1: just had lunch
[4/5/2011 1:04:43 PM] ummuhanna1: sambal sotong with rice
[4/5/2011 1:04:52 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[4/5/2011 1:08:02 PM] ummuhanna1: r u done yet?
[4/5/2011 1:08:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: wai
[4/5/2011 1:09:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im done
[4/5/2011 1:10:00 PM] ummuhanna1: what do you think?
[4/5/2011 1:10:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know what to think
[4/5/2011 1:10:20 PM] ummuhanna1: i think there's a way
[4/5/2011 1:10:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already told u one way
[4/5/2011 1:11:38 PM] ummuhanna1: i read on the net that it is ok to travel to uzbek without having to stay in hotel
[4/5/2011 1:11:52 PM] ummuhanna1: a few people already testified
[4/5/2011 1:11:59 PM] ummuhanna1: allahu'alam
[4/5/2011 1:12:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: did they still have to register?
[4/5/2011 1:12:26 PM] ummuhanna1: yes.
[4/5/2011 1:12:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: how did they register?
[4/5/2011 1:13:06 PM] ummuhanna1: obtain temporary permit after arrival
[4/5/2011 1:13:10 PM] ummuhanna1: within 3 days
[4/5/2011 1:13:26 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: from which agency?
[4/5/2011 1:13:29 PM] ummuhanna1: state address where you want to stay
[4/5/2011 1:13:37 PM] ummuhanna1: no agency
[4/5/2011 1:13:49 PM] ummuhanna1: go direct to govt office i guess
[4/5/2011 1:13:55 PM] ummuhanna1: some said police station
[4/5/2011 1:14:23 PM] ummuhanna1: that's why i want you to find out more about this matter
[4/5/2011 1:14:33 PM] ummuhanna1: ask your aunty laa sayang
[4/5/2011 1:14:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already ask
[4/5/2011 1:14:55 PM] ummuhanna1: the one who talked to me through skype last time whem i was in penang
[4/5/2011 1:15:01 PM] ummuhanna1: waht she said
[4/5/2011 1:15:16 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: thats the one i talked
[4/5/2011 1:15:32 PM] ummuhanna1: is it true?
[4/5/2011 1:15:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i even call up ministry of foreign affairs
[4/5/2011 1:16:00 PM] ummuhanna1: no other way yopu mean?
[4/5/2011 1:18:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: the guy in ministry told me i can try to do invitation letter myself but he said it may take long time
[4/5/2011 1:18:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont think i can do it untill i get my passport anyway
[4/5/2011 1:19:02 PM] ummuhanna1: not you buat.suruh your mother buat untuk saya
[4/5/2011 1:19:14 PM] ummuhanna1: boleh ke
[4/5/2011 1:19:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont want my mother to deal with police
[4/5/2011 1:20:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she has to get the approval from ministry of internal affairs
[4/5/2011 1:20:43 PM] ummuhanna1: what about your uncles,brother in laws?
[4/5/2011 1:21:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont want to sk them
[4/5/2011 1:21:22 PM] ummuhanna1: so you really dont want me to come
[4/5/2011 1:21:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: dont say like that
[4/5/2011 1:21:48 PM] ummuhanna1: i have to say like that'
[4/5/2011 1:21:58 PM] ummuhanna1: because you havent tried hard enough
[4/5/2011 1:22:34 PM] ummuhanna1: you restraint yourself from getting other people's help
[4/5/2011 1:23:08 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont like asking for other ppl's help
[4/5/2011 1:25:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: for example i already asked someone long time ago to make a passport for me. now , not him but someone accusing me that i betrayed them.
[4/5/2011 1:25:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: that bcause of me they might be in trouble
[4/5/2011 1:26:21 PM] ummuhanna1: did u tell the name to the authority?
[4/5/2011 1:26:36 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not yet
[4/5/2011 1:26:47 PM] ummuhanna1: so why he is accusing you
[4/5/2011 1:26:57 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah knows
[4/5/2011 1:27:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: he said , i did already wrong
[4/5/2011 1:28:21 PM] ummuhanna1: did you actually said that
[4/5/2011 1:28:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[4/5/2011 1:28:46 PM] ummuhanna1: other people doesnt imply only to someone
[4/5/2011 1:28:58 PM] ummuhanna1: it can mean anyone
[4/5/2011 1:29:15 PM] ummuhanna1: anyway sayang
[4/5/2011 1:29:31 PM] ummuhanna1: now i understand the situation better
[4/5/2011 1:29:39 PM] ummuhanna1: so what shaal i d
[4/5/2011 1:29:40 PM] ummuhanna1: o now
[4/5/2011 1:29:50 PM] ummuhanna1: what shall i do now?
[4/5/2011 1:30:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: can u sell the car for 2K?
[4/5/2011 1:30:09 PM] ummuhanna1: no
[4/5/2011 1:30:13 PM] ummuhanna1: maybe 500
[4/5/2011 1:30:20 PM] ummuhanna1: i already asked
[4/5/2011 1:30:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ask who?
[4/5/2011 1:30:39 PM] ummuhanna1: asked the car dealer
[4/5/2011 1:31:00 PM] ummuhanna1: car engine ok but the body is teruk giler
[4/5/2011 1:31:16 PM] ummuhanna1: both doors cannot be locked
[4/5/2011 1:31:39 PM] ummuhanna1: so if orang nak beli pun kena repair,banyak kos
[4/5/2011 1:32:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be Damir wants to buy?
[4/5/2011 1:32:10 PM] ummuhanna1: no
[4/5/2011 1:32:17 PM] ummuhanna1: he's thinking to buy new car
[4/5/2011 1:32:24 PM] ummuhanna1: i just called him yesterday
[4/5/2011 1:32:34 PM] ummuhanna1: he already submitted new application
[4/5/2011 1:32:48 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: how much your gold jewlery can be sold for?
[4/5/2011 1:32:57 PM] ummuhanna1: i was surprised
[4/5/2011 1:33:01 PM] ummuhanna1: very little
[4/5/2011 1:33:26 PM] ummuhanna1: i also asked the jewellery shop yesterday
[4/5/2011 1:33:49 PM | Edited 1:34:48 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if u plan to sell then try to look for direct consumer
[4/5/2011 1:33:52 PM] ummuhanna1: price now is RM153 but to sell back they cut 45%
[4/5/2011 1:34:00 PM] ummuhanna1: 153 per gram
[4/5/2011 1:34:11 PM] ummuhanna1: i can only get maybe around 800
[4/5/2011 1:34:21 PM] ummuhanna1: actual is rm1500
[4/5/2011 1:34:51 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[4/5/2011 1:34:59 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont want to stay in a hotel
[4/5/2011 1:35:13 PM] ummuhanna1: and i dont want to go under business visa
[4/5/2011 1:35:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 1:35:24 PM] ummuhanna1: it's too costly
[4/5/2011 1:35:42 PM] ummuhanna1: unless like what you said wait for your invitation letter
[4/5/2011 1:35:53 PM] ummuhanna1: i rather wait than waste money
[4/5/2011 1:36:07 PM] ummuhanna1: i have enough for air fare
[4/5/2011 1:36:20 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok , lets be patient then
[4/5/2011 1:36:42 PM] ummuhanna1: you can start write the letter now
[4/5/2011 1:36:58 PM] ummuhanna1: will they accept if you go see them?
[4/5/2011 1:37:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[4/5/2011 1:37:19 PM] ummuhanna1: you should try?
[4/5/2011 1:37:45 PM] ummuhanna1: they already know your passport are witheld by the authority
[4/5/2011 1:38:00 PM] ummuhanna1: so no harm trying
[4/5/2011 1:38:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: who they?
[4/5/2011 1:38:07 PM] ummuhanna1: why u want waste time
[4/5/2011 1:38:12 PM] ummuhanna1: the authority laa
[4/5/2011 1:38:26 PM] ummuhanna1: you said kena liase dengan police
[4/5/2011 1:38:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[4/5/2011 1:38:46 PM] ummuhanna1: so
[4/5/2011 1:39:08 PM] ummuhanna1: perhaps you could just write straight away
[4/5/2011 1:39:34 PM] ummuhanna1: you think you could that?
[4/5/2011 1:39:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think i will not liase with police
[4/5/2011 1:40:04 PM] ummuhanna1: there you go again
[4/5/2011 1:40:20 PM] ummuhanna1: so how are we going to solve this matter sayang
[4/5/2011 1:40:31 PM] ummuhanna1: dont be selfish
[4/5/2011 1:41:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be if i go to Dubai u can come there laa , sayang
[4/5/2011 1:41:41 PM] ummuhanna1: same problem
[4/5/2011 1:42:03 PM] ummuhanna1: i cant go without having marriage certificate,can i?
[4/5/2011 1:42:19 PM] ummuhanna1: where am i going to stay?
[4/5/2011 1:42:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: with me
[4/5/2011 1:42:40 PM] ummuhanna1: you should plan ahead of time sayng
[4/5/2011 1:42:56 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont think i can go justt like that
[4/5/2011 1:43:07 PM] ummuhanna1: im not comfortable anymore
[4/5/2011 1:43:36 PM] ummuhanna1: more so in Dubai where stricter law are observed
[4/5/2011 1:43:56 PM] ummuhanna1: you tak boleh buat main perkara ni
[4/5/2011 1:44:06 PM] ummuhanna1: it's very serious
[4/5/2011 1:44:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i don t think Dubai is strict on couples
[4/5/2011 1:44:48 PM] ummuhanna1: i cant say that for i have no knowledge about their rules and regulations
[4/5/2011 1:44:58 PM] ummuhanna1: actually i really wanted to go uzbek
[4/5/2011 1:45:08 PM] ummuhanna1: i want to go for vacation
[4/5/2011 1:45:15 PM] ummuhanna1: it's a big break for me
[4/5/2011 1:45:20 PM] ummuhanna1: you dont understand
[4/5/2011 1:45:31 PM] ummuhanna1: im too old to wait that long
[4/5/2011 1:45:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i understand
[4/5/2011 1:45:37 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont htink so
[4/5/2011 1:46:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already told u the express way
[4/5/2011 1:46:32 PM] ummuhanna1: what do you mean express way?
[4/5/2011 1:46:38 PM] ummuhanna1: go there and die
[4/5/2011 1:46:46 PM] ummuhanna1: and never return
[4/5/2011 1:47:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i mean pay extra money
[4/5/2011 1:47:23 PM] ummuhanna1: i cant afford
[4/5/2011 1:47:34 PM] ummuhanna1: just enough for air ticket
[4/5/2011 1:47:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 1:47:55 PM] ummuhanna1: perhap you could ask about the private home
[4/5/2011 1:48:07 PM] ummuhanna1: it cost around USD100
[4/5/2011 1:48:13 PM] ummuhanna1: per month
[4/5/2011 1:48:15 PM] ummuhanna1: not bad
[4/5/2011 1:48:42 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already asked. i was told tourist is not allowed to stay in aprivate home
[4/5/2011 1:49:09 PM] ummuhanna1: why then you think website tu semua cakap bohong lah
[4/5/2011 1:49:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u can go tto uzbek embassy and ask them
[4/5/2011 1:49:29 PM] ummuhanna1: private home yang kena bayar bukan free
[4/5/2011 1:49:44 PM] ummuhanna1: macam cheap accomadation
[4/5/2011 1:50:06 PM] ummuhanna1: did you read the website
[4/5/2011 1:52:06 PM] ummuhanna1: tourist visa which is valid to private home for 30days,perhaps this kind of long stay can g
[4/5/2011 1:52:17 PM] ummuhanna1: go to private hoome
[4/5/2011 1:52:39 PM] ummuhanna1: can you call and ask again
[4/5/2011 1:52:47 PM] ummuhanna1: that's what i read on the net
[4/5/2011 1:52:57 PM] ummuhanna1: it must be 30 days or more
[4/5/2011 1:53:00 PM] ummuhanna1: im not sure
[4/5/2011 1:54:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be u cab write to that website?
[4/5/2011 1:54:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: can
[4/5/2011 1:55:27 PM] ummuhanna1: i want you to ask the ministry of internal affairs whether they allowed such rulin
[4/5/2011 1:55:36 PM] ummuhanna1: maybe website tu tipu
[4/5/2011 1:55:48 PM] ummuhanna1: ambil duit kemudian nothing happen
[4/5/2011 1:56:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i al ready called the ministry of foreign affairs
[4/5/2011 1:56:16 PM] ummuhanna1: yesyou called
[4/5/2011 1:56:40 PM] ummuhanna1: but you further add that if a tourist stay for 30 days
[4/5/2011 1:56:54 PM] ummuhanna1: do they allow or not
[4/5/2011 1:57:07 PM] ummuhanna1: tell them tourist from malaysia
[4/5/2011 1:57:36 PM] ummuhanna1: different country have different rulings
[4/5/2011 1:57:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: listen , embassy of uzbekistan in KL should know all these
[4/5/2011 1:58:01 PM] ummuhanna1: ok then
[4/5/2011 1:58:15 PM] ummuhanna1: i ask damir to call on my behalf
[4/5/2011 1:58:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 1:58:59 PM] ummuhanna1: he said he has a friend working there
[4/5/2011 1:59:21 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang i want to ask you something
[4/5/2011 1:59:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 1:59:35 PM] ummuhanna1: dont be mad ok
[4/5/2011 1:59:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 2:00:42 PM] ummuhanna1: what do you do all day long and what do you do all night long?what im trying to say is how you spent your entire day there?tell me abit
[4/5/2011 2:01:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i sleep, i eat, walk around , read books
[4/5/2011 2:01:37 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: we have a yard i walk there
[4/5/2011 2:01:55 PM] ummuhanna1: you tak buat gardening ke?
[4/5/2011 2:02:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i made a pull up bar , i do pull ups now
[4/5/2011 2:02:17 PM] ummuhanna1: pull up bars for what
[4/5/2011 2:02:28 PM] ummuhanna1: push ups or pull ups
[4/5/2011 2:02:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: for excerize , remember we made in our flats
[4/5/2011 2:03:01 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[4/5/2011 2:03:07 PM] ummuhanna1: you dah kurus ke
[4/5/2011 2:03:19 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: tak
[4/5/2011 2:03:36 PM] ummuhanna1: eat slee take shit
[4/5/2011 2:03:39 PM] ummuhanna1: sleep
[4/5/2011 2:03:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: something like that
[4/5/2011 2:04:08 PM] ummuhanna1: onajon is pleased with you sayang
[4/5/2011 2:04:14 PM] ummuhanna1: //
[4/5/2011 2:04:17 PM] ummuhanna1: ??
[4/5/2011 2:04:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[4/5/2011 2:04:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she cooks for me all the time
[4/5/2011 2:05:05 PM] ummuhanna1: actually i already bought gifts for her
[4/5/2011 2:05:24 PM] ummuhanna1: i also bought new colorful tudung for me
[4/5/2011 2:05:46 PM] ummuhanna1: nevermind
[4/5/2011 2:06:19 PM] ummuhanna1: biiznillah one of these days i might go
[4/5/2011 2:06:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: inshaAllah
[4/5/2011 2:07:00 PM] ummuhanna1: if you dapat pasport
[4/5/2011 2:07:08 PM] ummuhanna1: you nak pergi Dubaikan
[4/5/2011 2:07:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes i want to go there
[4/5/2011 2:07:40 PM] ummuhanna1: but you said you must get sticker for travelling abroad
[4/5/2011 2:07:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[4/5/2011 2:07:53 PM] ummuhanna1: that one take how long
[4/5/2011 2:08:02 PM] ummuhanna1: agak2la
[4/5/2011 2:08:06 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: 2 weeks
[4/5/2011 2:08:55 PM] ummuhanna1: i would like you to stay in uzbek until i datang boleh ke
[4/5/2011 2:09:57 PM] ummuhanna1: i prefer uzbek to Dubai for vacation
[4/5/2011 2:10:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u check the registration thing 1st
[4/5/2011 2:10:35 PM] ummuhanna1: registration ??
[4/5/2011 2:10:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: see , u still seem dont understand the matter
[4/5/2011 2:11:02 PM] ummuhanna1: im sorry
[4/5/2011 2:11:19 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: foreigners enterring the uzbekistan must regsiter themselves
[4/5/2011 2:11:32 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaAllah
[4/5/2011 2:11:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: be it in hotel or private houses
[4/5/2011 2:11:47 PM] ummuhanna1: i understand
[4/5/2011 2:12:42 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaallah if they say boleh,then i try to come sonnest possible
[4/5/2011 2:12:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: good
[4/5/2011 2:13:04 PM] ummuhanna1: do i need to bring exra cash?
[4/5/2011 2:13:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no need
[4/5/2011 2:13:28 PM] ummuhanna1: nanti nak jalan2
[4/5/2011 2:13:32 PM] ummuhanna1: you ada duit ke
[4/5/2011 2:13:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ada
[4/5/2011 2:13:44 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[4/5/2011 2:13:48 PM] ummuhanna1: who gave you?
[4/5/2011 2:13:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u
[4/5/2011 2:14:01 PM] ummuhanna1: belum habis lagi ke
[4/5/2011 2:14:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: blm
[4/5/2011 2:14:11 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaallah
[4/5/2011 2:14:17 PM] ummuhanna1: im shocked
[4/5/2011 2:14:36 PM] ummuhanna1: i spent rm50 in a single day
[4/5/2011 2:14:44 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: for what?
[4/5/2011 2:15:05 PM] ummuhanna1: what i meant is you pandai save duit but not for me
[4/5/2011 2:15:11 PM] ummuhanna1: beli barangs
[4/5/2011 2:15:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: do u spend like that everyday?
[4/5/2011 2:15:25 PM] ummuhanna1: top up kredit RM30
[4/5/2011 2:15:31 PM] ummuhanna1: not really laa
[4/5/2011 2:15:33 PM] ummuhanna1:  sayng
[4/5/2011 2:15:49 PM] ummuhanna1: i just got money from tailoring
[4/5/2011 2:15:52 PM] ummuhanna1: baju kurung
[4/5/2011 2:15:59 PM] ummuhanna1: so i spent a bit on  myself
[4/5/2011 2:16:09 PM] ummuhanna1: a little bit for onajon
[4/5/2011 2:16:19 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 2:16:25 PM] ummuhanna1: you want anything from here
[4/5/2011 2:16:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sayang we talk about it when u r clear to come
[4/5/2011 2:16:58 PM] ummuhanna1: i have to plan laa sayang
[4/5/2011 2:17:10 PM] ummuhanna1: not enough time already
[4/5/2011 2:17:17 PM] ummuhanna1: just say laa
[4/5/2011 2:17:24 PM] ummuhanna1: no big deal
[4/5/2011 2:17:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: coconut cookies, not bisquits liek last time
[4/5/2011 2:18:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: and local cofe
[4/5/2011 2:18:08 PM] ummuhanna1: if i happen to go out with my children shopping..i can buy sikit2
[4/5/2011 2:18:11 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[4/5/2011 2:18:17 PM] ummuhanna1: i was thinking the same thing
[4/5/2011 2:18:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: do u know the diffence bw the 2
[4/5/2011 2:18:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: cookies and bisquits
[4/5/2011 2:18:52 PM] ummuhanna1: not really
[4/5/2011 2:18:59 PM] ummuhanna1: tell me
[4/5/2011 2:19:08 PM] ummuhanna1: is it written on the packet
[4/5/2011 2:19:23 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: some super markets dont have the cookies
[4/5/2011 2:19:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: its written yes
[4/5/2011 2:19:34 PM] ummuhanna1: oklaa
[4/5/2011 2:19:38 PM] ummuhanna1: saya cuba cari
[4/5/2011 2:21:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u can also look for products in clearance section whateve product as long as a good bargain u can buy and bring to us like coffe
[4/5/2011 2:21:16 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaallah
[4/5/2011 2:21:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: like we did when Bahrom came , remmebre?
[4/5/2011 2:21:35 PM] ummuhanna1: yes
[4/5/2011 2:21:50 PM] ummuhanna1: promise me something
[4/5/2011 2:21:56 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what
[4/5/2011 2:22:24 PM] ummuhanna1: if you dapat passpot soon can you write LOI for me
[4/5/2011 2:22:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i cannot promise that
[4/5/2011 2:22:58 PM] ummuhanna1: you really break my heart sayang
[4/5/2011 2:23:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im sorry
[4/5/2011 2:23:23 PM] ummuhanna1: i want to go now
[4/5/2011 2:23:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 2:23:37 PM] ummuhanna1: please send my salam to onajon
[4/5/2011 2:23:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 2:23:47 PM] ummuhanna1: assalamualaikum

A sad ending...

Assalamu alaikum
[2:34:56 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[2:35:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no mic
[2:35:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no speaker
[2:35:25 PM] ummuhanna1: assalamualaikum
[2:35:55 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[2:35:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: only texting
[2:36:44 PM] ummuhanna1: waalaikumsalam
[2:36:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: r u typing
[2:37:10 PM] ummuhanna1: y r u so late?
[2:37:43 PM] ummuhanna1: can u read my text message?
[2:38:25 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang r u still there?
[2:38:31 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: now only i see yr texting
[2:38:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[2:38:53 PM] ummuhanna1: yelaa
[2:39:12 PM] ummuhanna1: tadi tunggu lama sangat saya turun bawah
[2:39:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok sori
[2:39:42 PM] ummuhanna1: im having bad running nose now
[2:40:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see
[2:40:05 PM] ummuhanna1: u ok?
[2:40:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m ok
[2:40:20 PM] ummuhanna1: onajon
[2:40:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she went to a wedding party today
[2:40:57 PM] ummuhanna1: she seems to be busy with her life
[2:41:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: it just sounds nice
[2:41:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: but in a reality its not how as it sounds
[2:42:07 PM] ummuhanna1: why you said like that in reality what do u mean by that?
[2:42:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she goes only so that ppl wont be upset with her
[2:43:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she does not realy enjoy all that parties
[2:43:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: and ppl do those kenduries also so that other ppl wont be upset with them
[2:44:18 PM] ummuhanna1: actually kenduri is good
[2:44:44 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ppl worry about what ppl think about them more than they worry about what Allah thinks about them
[2:44:51 PM] ummuhanna1: in arabic it's called walimah
[2:45:23 PM] ummuhanna1: these ppl have limited knowledge or totally ignorant
[2:45:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: exactly
[2:45:49 PM] ummuhanna1: dnt wori mch abt them
[2:46:09 PM] ummuhanna1: i think onajon is doing the right thing
[2:46:27 PM] ummuhanna1: it;s more of bothers and sisters in islam
[2:46:41 PM] ummuhanna1: caring for each other
[2:47:01 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: but i think 99% dont pray
[2:47:27 PM] ummuhanna1: tht need to be addressed by the ruler
[2:47:44 PM] ummuhanna1: we can only remind them
[2:48:01 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[2:48:06 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[2:48:07 PM] ummuhanna1: u said about selling hp
[2:48:20 PM] ummuhanna1: dah cakap dengan bahrom ke?
[2:48:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: blm
[2:49:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m afraid my number cannot be reached from overseas sometimes
[2:49:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i sms ed him to call me but no call yet
[2:49:58 PM] ummuhanna1: send email to him today
[2:50:06 PM] ummuhanna1: since u r online
[2:50:25 PM] ummuhanna1: by the way did u read my email?
[2:50:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im reading it now
[2:52:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: okfinish
[2:52:47 PM] ummuhanna1: u still remember
[2:53:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes off course
[2:53:48 PM] ummuhanna1: u still plan to go to madinah?
[2:54:08 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not like plan but more like a dream
[2:54:37 PM] ummuhanna1: May Allah swt realised your dream,ameen
[2:54:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: inshaAllah via Dubai settle in Madinah
[2:54:46 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaAllah
[2:55:16 PM] ummuhanna1: I dream of going there too
[2:55:32 PM] ummuhanna1: no passport news yet?
[2:55:48 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: they are silent
[2:56:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be they are investigating the oficers who issued my passport more than me actually
[2:56:46 PM] ummuhanna1: u think they the officer concerned?
[2:56:53 PM] ummuhanna1: they found
[2:57:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i was told that they already called up the one who was a chief of that department
[2:58:11 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: during those times
[2:58:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: 2004
[2:58:29 PM] ummuhanna1: oh maybe they thought that guy was involved?
[2:58:40 PM] ummuhanna1: 2004 seem long time ago
[2:58:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[2:59:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: the guy is already in pension
[2:59:10 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[2:59:24 PM] ummuhanna1: at least they wont fired him
[2:59:31 PM] ummuhanna1: no chance i mean
[2:59:48 PM] ummuhanna1: he helped ur uncle?
[2:59:58 PM] ummuhanna1: was he the one?
[3:00:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sayang, what ever it was , the chief is answerable
[3:00:50 PM] ummuhanna1: May Allah protect you,ameen
[3:01:02 PM] ummuhanna1: and unlce mirshod too.ameen
[3:01:30 PM] ummuhanna1: now sudah April tau
[3:01:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[3:01:47 PM] ummuhanna1: time flies isnt it?
[3:01:58 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i want to call Gairat later today
[3:02:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: time flies
[3:02:15 PM] ummuhanna1: and jamaliah is silent too
[3:02:22 PM] ummuhanna1: shud i sms to her?
[3:02:36 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[3:02:48 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaAllah i sms  2nite
[3:03:20 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what kinda lock u use to lock the penang flat?
[3:03:47 PM] ummuhanna1: our lock laa yang ambil dekat tesco tuu
[3:03:58 PM] ummuhanna1: but bila pindah rumah
[3:04:06 PM] ummuhanna1: i didnt lock the grill
[3:04:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u should lock it with kinda lock which she dont have the key for
[3:05:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: then tell kak Leili not give the key till she hands the money she owes
[3:05:23 PM] ummuhanna1: i think that is not the right way to tackle this prob
[3:05:26 PM] ummuhanna1: anyway
[3:05:32 PM] ummuhanna1: she already took the key
[3:05:48 PM] ummuhanna1: long time ago from kak Laili's children
[3:06:00 PM] ummuhanna1: Kak laili was not at home it seem
[3:06:25 PM] ummuhanna1: I told kak Laili to give her the bills but
[3:06:48 PM] ummuhanna1: since she collected from the children they didnt give her the bills
[3:07:12 PM] ummuhanna1: now she told me she wanted to check the latest bills
[3:07:24 PM] ummuhanna1: by now shud have new one
[3:07:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: anyway
[3:07:49 PM] ummuhanna1: yes
[3:07:58 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i cannot help u sori
[3:08:05 PM] ummuhanna1: i understand
[3:08:14 PM] ummuhanna1: she's a tough woman to handle
[3:08:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: tough my ass
[3:08:27 PM] ummuhanna1: May allah make it easy 4 me,ameen
[3:08:42 PM] ummuhanna1: u never spek to her
[3:08:55 PM] ummuhanna1: u dont understand how she manipulate things
[3:09:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if u have the force , use it.
[3:09:44 PM] ummuhanna1: problem is we dont have balck and white
[3:09:54 PM] ummuhanna1: no prove
[3:09:59 PM] ummuhanna1: that i paid her 200
[3:10:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: well u can go and do some 200 ringgit worth of demage to her house
[3:10:44 PM] ummuhanna1: im here sayng
[3:11:05 PM] ummuhanna1: your suggestion now is not reachable
[3:11:21 PM] ummuhanna1: i need money to save
[3:11:43 PM] ummuhanna1: i already ask hafiza to pay me back rm300
[3:11:59 PM] ummuhanna1: she said she's try to pay half first
[3:12:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: did u give any wedding present to her ?
[3:12:21 PM] ummuhanna1: yes
[3:12:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: tv?
[3:12:35 PM] ummuhanna1: i bought her big table fan
[3:12:41 PM] ummuhanna1: that too
[3:12:43 PM] ummuhanna1: tv
[3:13:00 PM] ummuhanna1: i want to give her our fan too
[3:13:13 PM] ummuhanna1: she's anice girl
[3:13:27 PM] ummuhanna1: now she jage her prayers
[3:13:32 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[3:13:40 PM] ummuhanna1: and wear tudung too
[3:13:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: big one?
[3:14:02 PM] ummuhanna1: no biasa
[3:14:19 PM] ummuhanna1: not like mine
[3:14:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: by the way if u come to uzbek i want u to wear small colourful tudung
[3:15:04 PM] ummuhanna1: why is that???????????
[3:15:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: do u still have no idea about what hapopening in uzbekistan????
[3:15:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: they might take straight to jail from airport
[3:16:07 PM] ummuhanna1: u mean even for tourists?
[3:16:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be
[3:16:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if not u , may be take me
[3:16:45 PM] ummuhanna1: i understand
[3:16:49 PM] ummuhanna1: dont wori
[3:16:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: when they see me with u
[3:17:40 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaAllah,it the right time comes,I'll ask u what to bring,what to wear and all those staff that I need to know
[3:17:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[3:18:12 PM] ummuhanna1: BUT for nor i dont have any color tudung
[3:18:20 PM] ummuhanna1: so i need to buy some laa
[3:18:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: dont buy yet
[3:18:34 PM] ummuhanna1: bukan sekarang laa
[3:18:46 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaallah next month
[3:18:55 PM] ummuhanna1: in May
[3:18:58 PM] ummuhanna1: sayng
[3:19:04 PM] ummuhanna1: now is durian season
[3:19:12 PM] ummuhanna1: banyak durian by the roadsides
[3:19:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see
[3:19:38 PM] ummuhanna1: mae me remember you
[3:19:40 PM] ummuhanna1: make
[3:19:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see
[3:19:51 PM] ummuhanna1: makan durian last year
[3:20:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: r u eating yet?
[3:20:31 PM] ummuhanna1: sudah makan adn alhamdulillah sudah pray zuhr
[3:20:45 PM] ummuhanna1: r u hungry sayng
[3:20:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what u mean?
[3:21:21 PM] ummuhanna1: i mean belum makan apa-apa lagi ke dari pagi tadi?
[3:21:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i want to go in 9 minits time
[3:21:37 PM] ummuhanna1: u always in a hurry
[3:21:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sikit sikit cukup laa
[3:22:13 PM] ummuhanna1: cakap saja dah boring kan
[3:22:20 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ye
[3:22:28 PM] ummuhanna1: tak kisah i go now
[3:22:33 PM] ummuhanna1: assalamualaikum
[3:22:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u upset
[3:22:42 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ??
[3:22:58 PM] *** Call ended, duration 48:02 ***
AbdulAziz bin abi

Akajon N Me on Skype Today

[1:01:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: can u hear me?\
[1:01:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i can hear u
[1:02:14 PM] ummuhanna1: you have cam
[1:03:00 PM] *** Call ended, duration 01:54 ***
[1:03:20 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[1:03:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no mic no cam
[1:04:04 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[1:04:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: h r u?
[1:04:31 PM] ummuhanna1: can u hear me
[1:04:41 PM] ummuhanna1: im ok alhamdulillah
[1:04:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no speaker
[1:04:54 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[1:05:12 PM] ummuhanna1: how's yesterday meeting?
[1:05:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not much
[1:05:57 PM] ummuhanna1: what they asked you?
[1:06:02 PM] ummuhanna1: im very curious
[1:06:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: who made the pasportfor me?
[1:06:41 PM] ummuhanna1: did you tell them?
[1:06:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not really
[1:07:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my uncle say " if u can dont tell them"
[1:07:32 PM] ummuhanna1: did you read email i sent u?
[1:07:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ow i m reading
[1:08:55 PM] ummuhanna1: r u done yet?
[1:09:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no
[1:09:07 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[1:13:18 PM] ummuhanna1: belum habis baca lagi ke?
[1:13:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: blm
[1:15:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok dah
[1:16:00 PM] ummuhanna1: u can replay after u done here
[1:16:04 PM] ummuhanna1: reply
[1:16:26 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: see la  how
[1:16:32 PM] ummuhanna1: you malas laa
[1:17:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what exactly imortant u asked in this emails?
[1:17:39 PM] ummuhanna1: r u ready to go anytime?
[1:18:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: well i no passport
[1:18:31 PM] ummuhanna1: so my q is if you have r u ready to go
[1:19:20 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if i have pasport i need a sticker in my passport which says i m allowed to leave abroad
[1:20:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if i cannot get that then i need to cross the border in secret , may be to kazakistan via land then try to fly to dubai
[1:20:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: which is risky
[1:21:01 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: they might catch in action, so its not easy decision to make , sayang
[1:21:23 PM] ummuhanna1: the sticker you r talking about
[1:21:39 PM] ummuhanna1: is it difficult to be approved?
[1:21:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:23:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: a possible scenario :  i get convicted of a crime for my passport then no approval to leave the country
[1:24:05 PM] ummuhanna1: will they put yoi in jail?
[1:24:36 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[1:25:23 PM] ummuhanna1: let say if you tell them the truth wil it change anything?
[1:25:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[1:26:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already promise to my uncle not to tell
[1:26:19 PM] ummuhanna1: anyboby you know or heard being convicted of same crime?
[1:26:39 PM] ummuhanna1: anybody
[1:26:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[1:27:00 PM] ummuhanna1: you should ask around
[1:27:08 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dotn want
[1:27:36 PM] ummuhanna1: then in this case is it better for you to find a job
[1:28:57 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: well i want to work
[1:29:09 PM] ummuhanna1: any offer yet?
[1:29:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not yet
[1:29:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: they might refuse to hire coz no passport
[1:30:58 PM] ummuhanna1: i know this is a very painful experience for you
[1:31:17 PM] ummuhanna1: even in your country you cant apply for job
[1:31:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: and more painfull is to be refused to enter Paradise
[1:32:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m not suprised
[1:32:52 PM] ummuhanna1: me either
[1:33:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allah promised to test those who say we believe
[1:33:51 PM] ummuhanna1: i reminded myself of that beautiful verses in Quran,the one I email
[1:34:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: last verses of baqara?
[1:34:22 PM] ummuhanna1: naam
[1:37:11 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah tested those that only can tahan going through that test..in your case,Allah is testing you like this ..insyaallah you would be rewarded for your holding strong to your deen
[1:38:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i hope from Allah
[1:38:28 PM] ummuhanna1: hope comes with fear as well
[1:38:44 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[1:38:54 PM] ummuhanna1: onajan sihat?
[1:39:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i should fear Allah and only Him
[1:39:26 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: onajon is ok
[1:39:38 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah Akbar
[1:39:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my father always scoll my mother
[1:39:56 PM] ummuhanna1: itu cerita lama
[1:40:22 PM] ummuhanna1: i think he's been scolding onajon from your childhood dys..
[1:40:49 PM] ummuhanna1: i really pity onajon
[1:41:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: he even beat my mother before
[1:42:07 PM] ummuhanna1: May Allah swt protect you and onajon from your father misconduct,ameen
[1:42:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ameen
[1:42:55 PM] ummuhanna1: have you sit down with your father and talk?
[1:43:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont want to talk
[1:44:26 PM] ummuhanna1: you must at least protect onajon from being harassed and beaten by him.
[1:45:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: when he says bad things to my mother i just keep quite
[1:46:22 PM] ummuhanna1: Ask Allah swt to give you the strength to be able to give nasihat to your father with wisdom.
[1:47:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i brought some books full of wisdom to the house . he is reading them
[1:47:21 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaAllah
[1:47:33 PM] ummuhanna1: is it in uzbek or russian?
[1:47:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: uzbek
[1:47:51 PM] ummuhanna1: you know something?
[1:48:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: wat
[1:48:27 PM] ummuhanna1: i really feel like meeting your father and sit dwon with him  and talk
[1:48:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what ever
[1:49:01 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont have a father since young
[1:49:12 PM] ummuhanna1: my father passes away
[1:49:18 PM] ummuhanna1: passed
[1:49:30 PM] ummuhanna1: sorry if i said something wrong here
[1:49:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i wish my father dies soon
[1:49:52 PM] ummuhanna1: it's just only a thought that crosses my mind
[1:50:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i know
[1:50:19 PM] ummuhanna1: Ask for the best for him
[1:50:29 PM] ummuhanna1: you dont know
[1:51:23 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if its best for me for him to die then i want him dead
[1:51:32 PM] ummuhanna1: Through you Allah might make his heart softer and become a better slave
[1:52:05 PM] ummuhanna1: You are saying with heart full of hatred
[1:52:16 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: I hope Allah reward me
[1:52:32 PM] ummuhanna1: Ameen
[1:52:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i feel the hatred from my father towards my mother
[1:52:56 PM] ummuhanna1: I can understand tthat
[1:53:28 PM] ummuhanna1: Has he ever beaten you b4?
[1:53:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:54:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: his words are more painfull to me than his beating
[1:54:26 PM] ummuhanna1: you told me that too
[1:54:38 PM] ummuhanna1: about you not being his son
[1:55:06 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: there are many other words which are may be even more painfull
[1:55:23 PM] ummuhanna1: he's and old man dying anytime soon
[1:55:34 PM] ummuhanna1: please have some mercy on him
[1:55:47 PM] ummuhanna1: forgive his past actions
[1:56:22 PM] ummuhanna1: the rest leave it to Allah swt
[1:56:44 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think i want to go now
[1:56:59 PM] ummuhanna1: why hurry
[1:57:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: its almost 1 hour
[1:57:15 PM] ummuhanna1: nak balik rumah ke?
[1:57:29 PM] ummuhanna1: not yet 1hr
[1:57:37 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be i want to meet my good friend
[1:57:53 PM] ummuhanna1: you c me first laa sayang
[1:58:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already saw u just now
[1:58:14 PM] ummuhanna1: when
[1:58:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u mean cam ke?
[1:58:37 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta paya cam
[1:58:39 PM] ummuhanna1: ya
[1:58:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: why u want me to see ur picture?
[1:58:57 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont need to see ur picture
[1:59:01 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i love u
[1:59:02 PM] ummuhanna1: coz i want u to remeber me
[1:59:11 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: without looking at u
[1:59:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont need to see u to remmeber u
[1:59:39 PM] ummuhanna1: r u still there?
[2:00:06 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: r u there?
[2:00:08 PM] *** Call ended, duration 56:04 ***
[2:00:43 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[2:00:53 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[2:01:03 PM] ummuhanna1: nak pegi dah ke?
[2:01:39 PM] ummuhanna1: can you read my text message?
[2:01:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: [1:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi:

<<< i dont need to see u to remmeber u
[2:02:18 PM] ummuhanna1: at least i wanna smile
[2:02:30 PM] ummuhanna1: and show u my big teeth
[2:02:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta paya
[2:02:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ada ramai org kat sisni
[2:03:07 PM] ummuhanna1: r u going to tashkent?
[2:03:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta faham ke?
[2:03:13 PM] ummuhanna1: faham
[2:03:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m waiting for investigation
[2:03:39 PM] ummuhanna1: ic
[2:04:05 PM] ummuhanna1: i might go there in May
[2:04:13 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[2:04:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: inshaAllah
[2:04:21 PM] ummuhanna1: i try to save some money now
[2:04:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[2:04:32 PM] ummuhanna1: is it ok with u?
[2:04:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes. only i hope i will be free to meet u
[2:05:24 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaallah i have to correspond to you first b4 i decide
[2:05:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sure
[2:05:43 PM] ummuhanna1: if not no point going there at all
[2:05:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: off course
[2:06:28 PM] ummuhanna1: i pray and make dua for all of us
[2:06:53 PM] ummuhanna1: there's wisdom behind all these happenings.
[2:07:04 PM] ummuhanna1: so,be patient..
[2:07:15 PM] ummuhanna1: i love u sayang
[2:07:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i love u too
[2:07:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[2:07:30 PM] ummuhanna1: i go now
[2:07:37 PM] ummuhanna1: ok assalamualaikum
[2:07:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: waalaikum assalaam
[2:08:01 PM] *** Call ended, duration 07:18 ***

A little conversation with Akajon..

[3/8/2011 2:57:03 PM] *** Call ended, duration 55:51 ***
[12:48:09 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[12:58:18 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[12:58:50 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[1:07:45 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[1:08:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: hello
[1:08:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no mic
[1:08:35 PM] ummuhanna1: so sad
[1:08:46 PM] ummuhanna1: no video too
[1:08:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no
[1:09:17 PM] ummuhanna1: can you see me
[1:09:19 PM] ummuhanna1: if i on
[1:09:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: try
[1:09:35 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[1:10:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes i saw u
[1:10:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: then i quickle off it coz many ppl around
[1:10:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im in cafe
[1:10:57 PM] ummuhanna1: do yoy have any other computer with mic and video there
[1:11:04 PM] ummuhanna1: you
[1:11:27 PM] ummuhanna1: if you can see me that means you can on your video too
[1:11:43 PM] ummuhanna1: try to on your video for me
[1:11:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no cam
[1:11:56 PM] ummuhanna1: ic
[1:12:11 PM] ummuhanna1: you read my emails
[1:12:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:12:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Rustam Yuldashev
[1:12:39 PM] ummuhanna1: you know his family?
[1:12:57 PM] ummuhanna1: they lived in Tashkent
[1:13:09 PM] ummuhanna1: wealthy family
[1:13:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not yet
[1:13:22 PM] ummuhanna1: try to find out OK
[1:13:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i need to find out his father's name
[1:14:06 PM] ummuhanna1: if you go to facebook you might find some info there.many pics of his family
[1:14:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: so many Rustam Yuldashev in facebook which one
[1:14:30 PM] ummuhanna1: form USA
[1:14:38 PM] ummuhanna1: from USA
[1:14:59 PM] ummuhanna1: 24 years old
[1:15:04 PM] ummuhanna1: very young
[1:15:14 PM] ummuhanna1: attractive
[1:15:21 PM] ummuhanna1: tall
[1:16:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see
[1:17:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if u know his facebook page adress just copy and send to me now
[1:18:01 PM] ummuhanna1: i try
[1:18:04 PM] ummuhanna1: wait
[1:18:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ainul Mardiah
[1:19:50 PM] ummuhanna1: yes
[1:20:02 PM] ummuhanna1: his wife
[1:20:09 PM] ummuhanna1: my exhusband's niece
[1:20:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok then i got his page
[1:20:27 PM] ummuhanna1: ok.take alook at his pics
[1:20:44 PM] ummuhanna1: family very beautiful
[1:20:53 PM] ummuhanna1: especially his sister
[1:20:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i cannot i  think i need to be friend with him 1st no?
[1:21:10 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont know
[1:21:14 PM] ummuhanna1: try laa
[1:21:23 PM] ummuhanna1: maryam can go in
[1:21:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: how u manage to see his pics
[1:21:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ?
[1:21:35 PM] ummuhanna1: through maryam facebook
[1:21:52 PM] ummuhanna1: log in to your facebook now
[1:22:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m
[1:22:07 PM] ummuhanna1: i sned his web address to you
[1:22:10 PM] ummuhanna1: send
[1:28:50 PM] ummuhanna1: anyway insyaallah i try to get his father's name for you
[1:28:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[1:29:08 PM] ummuhanna1: u ok sayang
[1:29:10 PM] ummuhanna1: any new
[1:29:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i wrote litle emails to u
[1:29:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sikit ja
[1:29:35 PM] ummuhanna1: jazakallah khairan
[1:29:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta banyak
[1:29:48 PM] ummuhanna1: tell me a bit about your father
[1:30:07 PM] ummuhanna1: how did he react upon seeing you
[1:30:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my father got drunk yesterday
[1:30:16 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaallah
[1:30:20 PM] ummuhanna1: any reason
[1:30:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m back
[1:30:33 PM] ummuhanna1: he's not happy or what
[1:30:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think his happy
[1:31:02 PM] ummuhanna1: how;d you know for sure
[1:31:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m just guessing
[1:31:42 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: he scolded me yesterday very badly
[1:32:44 PM] ummuhanna1: for not coming back sooner..?
[1:33:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no , for not bringing my shoes from tashkent
[1:34:33 PM] ummuhanna1: I think he just used the shoes excuse to scold  you badly...he need to let go of his steam...dont feel bad
[1:34:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think he hates me
[1:35:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i tihnk he hates me and my moter nmy 3 sisters
[1:36:44 PM] ummuhanna1: he's not in his stable mind moreover I think he has very little iman in his heart.Give him time to sober..perhaps you both can sit down face to face when the right time comes..ask Allah to give you taufik and hidayah..
[1:37:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i hate hm too
[1:38:23 PM] ummuhanna1: dont show your hatred to him sayang.I think it's not good for you and the family.better way is for you to remain silent and be patient with him..i know it's very hard thing to do,but you must try
[1:38:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see how
[1:39:30 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah is testing all of us...be it good or bad
[1:40:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allah is testing what w do at a given situation. Its a good reminder
[1:40:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: we
[1:41:07 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[1:41:24 PM] ummuhanna1: any news about your job applications?
[1:42:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my father is trying to find a job for me in TAshkent
[1:42:57 PM] ummuhanna1: private or government?
[1:43:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: kinda private
[1:43:25 PM] ummuhanna1: is he staying with your mother in the same house in your hometown?
[1:44:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:44:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[1:44:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u ok?
[1:45:04 PM] ummuhanna1: why so fast
[1:45:19 PM] ummuhanna1: it's not even one hour yet
[1:45:31 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m already more than 1 hour in cc
[1:45:58 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: coz i read emails 1st b4 i talked to u in skype
[1:46:17 PM] ummuhanna1: onajon OK?
[1:46:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she ok. she cooked rice pilaf semalam. sdap
[1:46:55 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaallah
[1:47:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: in a big dish
[1:47:10 PM] ummuhanna1: just like us
[1:47:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: we had a small kenduri
[1:47:27 PM] ummuhanna1: oh ic
[1:47:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: using wood in outdoors
[1:47:54 PM] ummuhanna1: surely the fod tasted better with burnt woods
[1:47:59 PM] ummuhanna1: food
[1:48:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: exactly
[1:48:14 PM] ummuhanna1: are you in town now?
[1:48:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:48:43 PM] ummuhanna1: naik bas ke taxi?
[1:48:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: jalankaki
[1:48:57 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[1:49:15 PM] ummuhanna1: do you want to see me b4 you go?
[1:49:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[1:49:48 PM] ummuhanna1: you can see me
[1:49:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u off urself ke?
[1:49:57 PM] ummuhanna1: tak
[1:50:16 PM] ummuhanna1: nampak tak
[1:50:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: da
[1:50:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: dah nampak dah
[1:50:41 PM] ummuhanna1: i look ok to you
[1:50:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: es
[1:50:52 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[1:50:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes dont worry sayang
[1:51:20 PM] ummuhanna1: i must worry
[1:51:28 PM] ummuhanna1: you are far away and im here
[1:51:43 PM] ummuhanna1: i cant help it
[1:52:19 PM] ummuhanna1: maybe next time you find cc with mic and cam ok
[1:52:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[1:52:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: where r u?
[1:52:47 PM] ummuhanna1: the one that your mother used to go
[1:52:53 PM] ummuhanna1: im in malina's room
[1:53:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m in that place now but they have only one mic and it was busy
[1:53:19 PM] ummuhanna1: im sleeping in her room also but on the floor
[1:53:45 PM] ummuhanna1: belilah satu
[1:53:52 PM] ummuhanna1: is it expensive?
[1:53:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: inshaAllah
[1:54:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not really, but when u dont have money then ...
[1:54:47 PM] ummuhanna1: i understand sayang
[1:55:05 PM] ummuhanna1: hopefully Allah will increase our riz,ameen
[1:55:14 PM] ummuhanna1: rizk
[1:55:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Alhamdu li Allah
[1:55:36 PM] ummuhanna1: i try not to spend much here too
[1:55:58 PM] ummuhanna1: even top up i try to budget
[1:56:08 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:56:13 PM] ummuhanna1: i want to go see you in May insyaallah
[1:56:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ur sms es to me is expensive sayang
[1:56:32 PM] ummuhanna1: i know.
[1:56:39 PM] ummuhanna1: but it's worth it..
[1:58:12 PM] ummuhanna1: my mind wont be at ease if i did not hear from you...so,i sms and try to find out if you r ok or not...so,keep in touch is a good thing for me to do
[1:58:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: here i can buy sms packages like 70 sms for 3 usdollar
[1:58:44 PM] ummuhanna1: RM10 for 70 sms.mahal ke?
[1:59:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think u pay 50 sen for one sms
[1:59:34 PM] ummuhanna1: yes,correct,correct,correct
[1:59:48 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: like for 20 sms u pay 10 ringgit
[1:59:57 PM] ummuhanna1: more or less
[2:00:31 PM] ummuhanna1: money is not worth that much compared to hearing from you..
[2:01:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: there are things money cant buy
[2:01:14 PM] ummuhanna1: like what?
[2:01:39 PM] ummuhanna1: money cant buy love?
[2:02:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: how is hanna?
[2:02:12 PM] ummuhanna1: she's upset with me
[2:02:23 PM] ummuhanna1: belum pegi sekolah
[2:02:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: wy?
[2:02:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: why upset?
[2:03:14 PM] ummuhanna1: the govvt didnt register her yet in any school.it seems the officer to approve her application not a round this week
[2:03:38 PM] ummuhanna1: next week school holidays.so,hanna cuti 3 minggu
[2:03:44 PM] ummuhanna1: dia marah saya
[2:04:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta pay marah
[2:04:46 PM] ummuhanna1: anyway im happy to see her read quran after magrib every night
[2:04:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:05:00 PM] ummuhanna1: she's abit different from the rest
[2:05:09 PM] ummuhanna1: pray 5 times a day
[2:05:16 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:05:48 PM] ummuhanna1: that's a consolation for me
[2:05:54 PM] ummuhanna1: to stay in this house
[2:06:09 PM] ummuhanna1: and see her growing up
[2:06:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: and what a consolation it is !!!
[2:06:24 PM] ummuhanna1: allahu akabr
[2:06:28 PM] ummuhanna1: akbar
[2:06:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allahu Akbar
[2:06:36 PM] ummuhanna1: even na9 is changing
[2:06:42 PM] ummuhanna1: not like praying
[2:06:44 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:06:56 PM] ummuhanna1: but more to becoming like my frind now
[2:07:06 PM] ummuhanna1: like to listen to me and open up
[2:07:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:07:16 PM] ummuhanna1: even maryam
[2:07:22 PM] ummuhanna1: but the rest
[2:07:57 PM] ummuhanna1: may allah give them taufik and hidayah,ameen
[2:08:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u just do ur job the rest should not be ur concern
[2:08:48 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[2:08:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok sayang
[2:08:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[2:09:22 PM] ummuhanna1: now Allah is giving me the chance to do good to my children.One day I might not have the chance anymore
[2:09:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: exactly
[2:09:36 PM] ummuhanna1: I am thinking sayang
[2:09:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what?
[2:09:58 PM] ummuhanna1: i think you already know
[2:10:16 PM] ummuhanna1: im thinking to leave them and stay with you
[2:10:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sure
[2:10:34 PM] ummuhanna1: so i want to spend as much time with them as i could
[2:10:53 PM] ummuhanna1: i plan to migrate in December 2011
[2:11:15 PM] ummuhanna1: when i got my EPFmoney,biiznillah
[2:11:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u will leave them one day anyway, may be b4 u even meet me
[2:11:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: so value the moments
[2:12:18 PM] ummuhanna1: we can only plan BUT Allah swt is the ultimate decision maker...
[2:12:31 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allahu Akabr
[2:12:48 PM] ummuhanna1: I ask for the best of this dunya and the best of aqirah,ameen
[2:13:14 PM] ummuhanna1: did you read the surah an nahl i sent you in emails?
[2:13:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[2:13:35 PM] ummuhanna1: it's a good reminder for all of us.
[2:13:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: off course
[2:14:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now sayang
[2:14:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i love u
[2:14:40 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: assalamu alaikum
[2:14:56 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[2:15:07 PM] ummuhanna1: ok sayang
[2:15:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: be patient
[2:15:19 PM] ummuhanna1: waalaikumsalam
[2:15:36 PM] ummuhanna1: i know,it' very very hard and painful for me here
[2:15:51 PM] ummuhanna1: but i always ask allah to give me strength
[2:16:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: think about HELL
[2:16:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: assalamu alaikum
[2:16:21 PM] ummuhanna1: waalaikumsalam
[2:16:28 PM] *** Call ended, duration 1:06:52 ***
AbdulAziz bin abi

I am in dilemma...

Today alhamdulillah is the second day I am teaching Hana English language.Akajon skyped with me around 2pm.I was so excited.But now after exchanging messages I realised that Akajon is not that serious about legalising my marriage to him.I felt very upset so much so that I couldnt speak to him for a while.Perhaps I am the one who is taking this thing too seriously without considering his problems there.nevertheless, I still wanted him to promise me to find out more details about this matter.I dont think I can go through like he went through recently.It's too painful for me,too straineous,so much of hardship and difficulties.Thinking about this also make my spine shivers.I cried a lot today thinking about my situation now.I am in dilemma whether to join Akajon there for good or come back here.Everthing seem to be blurry and uncertain.My idea is to be with him as a lawfully wedded wife and stay there with a valid visa, but his idea is totally opposite of mine.He rather want me to stay with him unregistered with the intention of residing there for the rest of my life..I cannot decide which direction I should go,it's too heavy on me to consider right now.This is not a game.This is reality.I pray to Allah swt to guide me to the straight path and not go astray, ameen.

Life is boring without you

Went breakfast with Hana,Milah,Sheda,Naufal and papa Hana.Then went to Tesco for weekly marketing.In the evening I went with Na9 to buy pasar malam food for dinner.Today,suddenly,I feel lonely and bored.Sent sms to Akajon.It seems that he is having a good time with his family and relatives whereas i am suffering here inside out,outside in.My children presence is not much of help to me,in fact I feel like I wanna disappear somewhere further away from everyone.I really need a break,a big break...

Another Day Passes By

Today Milah took leave so I have to replace her going to tesco to buy foodstuff and groceries.I cooked filaf rice with mutton and a bit pot of dalca.Alhamdulillah, everyone in my family enjoy the food so much. I was cooking and at the same type chatting with akajon through skype.Alhamdulillah, this time, I got to see him online.Later in the afternoon,Hafiza and Marezuan came for lunch.Myself,Maryam and papa Hanna went to buy bread at Delifrance.InsyaAllah,this coming Tuesday,I am going back to Penang with papa Hana.Subhanallah,I am very full today,ate too much of food....I can see Akajon is putting on weight as well.

Why silent?

Since I remitted you the money,you seem not to care for me any more.Is that what is happening now? You are too busy even to answer my sms.I am very hurt today Akajon.Very hurt indeed.I already sent 2 smses to you but you did not reply..Why????????what happened to you? Are you in some kind of trouble again?

Transfer successful

Alhamdulillah today moneygram transfer went through.I was so relieved ,no more cycling to the bank.went to Jusco Sunway Pyramid,bought pillows and bedsheets for Maryam.Furnitures arrived today.I rejected the mirror though,have some defect.Aunt flo came visiting early this morning.I am a bit tired, so I will hit the sack early tonight.

Long tiring day

Very tiring day.Went to maybank with Milah and Naufal by mini bus.Later,Latiff picked us up around 1pm.After solat zuhr,maryam and myself followed latiff to Putrajaya Hospital.Then went for makan at Rock Cafe.Then picked up Hafiza at Sunway Hospital.After that,went with Malina to clinic,then went to mcdonald.online with akajon for 40 minutes.What a day.! I think Akajon is really pissed with the local authority.I cannot say much on this matter as i really dont know and dont understand the people problems there.
Akajon moneygram transaction still not successful. InsyaAllah,I tried again tomorrow.May Allah swt make it easy for all of us,ameen.

pouring my heart out

happy to see akajon's in person through skype today.Went with milah and naufal to Maybank but  moneygram tranx not successful,line down.Later asked na9 to collect my Ic and money from the counter.Wrote email to akajon..i dont know,i think im depressed now....Milah is very cruel to me....She always try to make me hated my x hubby per chance that I might move out from this house....Very evil is her attentions...I must be strong....May Allah swt help me to make me patient and steadfast in His deen.ameen

I feel bored...

Long time never write,I feel bored now.Today I miss skyping with Akajon,so busy with family matters.He asked to send him moneygram USD 200.InsyaAllah,I do it tomorrow.My sister's car was badly damaged,hit by a 8 ton lorry.Lately,very busy,very tired...

A new life and a new beginning

Time really flies.Everything is over.Now I must find a way to support myself and syuhaida's family.Akajon,you are very far away from me.I must decide myself what to do with my life now.Alllah is testing me .Ya Allah make me stronger in my deen,ameen.I remembered when I was younger,I used to tell everybody that I dont need my children's help.Subhanallah,I was dead wrong back then.Allah make me realised now that I need them more than they need me.Ya Allah please forgive me for talking in an arrogant manner...I would have never felt I was at fault  if Allah swt didnt put me in this situation.Allahu Akbar..
At this point of time ,suddenly I can see that my life is turning 360 degrees.I have to move forward now and leave everything behind.

This would be a new life and a new beginning.My journey starts now.....

Busy days are over

Alhamdulillah,everything went on smoothly.Today Fiza and Wan went to Raub.Last night I managed to skype with Akajon.Got the chance to see his handsome face for a few seconds.I dont know why but I am feeling very tired every single day...Now I am having a big bump on my buttock.very uncomfortable..I guess I will start blogging after I went back to Penang next week...

Another Day to go

A lot of preparations before the wedding.very tiring but at the same time full of excitement.Today I called up Akajon around 4pm.Alhamdulillah,I managed to talk with him for 20 minutes.I am tires,so tired today...maybe I sleep early tonight.My ex husband bougt KFC for dinner.Morning ate tose and roti canai.Night time the girls,decorated their hands with henna,beautifuly done by Anis.

Musibah Day

In the morning,went with my sister and family members to buy breakfast.Rashidah and Ishak came .After that went to PKNS and later went to PAS.Came back drove myv to Giant.On the way back,I accidentally hit the curve at Section 18,Shah Alam causing damaged on the bottom part,left side of the car.Inna lillah hiwainna  ilai hirojiun.What have I done...?????????? told ex-husband but I did not tell Fiza and Malina yet.I dont want to spoil their mood.
I am very tired today.Akajon is sick today.Maybe that is the reason why,my mind is not stable...

Another Day Goes by

Busy mending my ex-husband's curtain and also na9's curtain.Too long.In the afternoon,Akajon sent sms,asked me to go on Skype,but i was not able to skype with him as he was in a rush to go somewhere.Walked with Milah to kedai,bought groceries.Later,followed my ex husband together with Maryam,Sheda and Naufal to Putrajaya Hospital then went for makan at Rock Cafe.Nice food, alhmadulillah.Then went to fetch Fiza.Came back ,took Malina's car,went to Giant with Maryam to buy eggs.Now,I am waiting for the arrival of my family from Penang.
Today I sent sms inviting Azman n family for Fiza's wedding.I also invited Damir n family members.

Alahamdulillah,I finished sewing everybody's baju kurung today.Followed na9 and anis to open an enterprise company.Took few hours to settle the matter,I sent sms to Akajon,he replied,alhamdulillah.Court case on the 4th February.He mentioned in the sms to hope for the best outcome.May Allah swt make it easy for him to go through this pace of life.In the evening,myself and the others help Fiza to fix the curtains.Alhamdulillah,it looks good in the room.Fiza wedding day is just a few days away.Tomorrow insyaAllah,my sister's family and my brother's family coming down here to celebrate this joyous ocassion together.
My mind is not as disturbed as yesterday.I ammore relaxed today.Alhamdulillah.Ya Allah,Give us the best of this world and the best of the afterworld,ameen.

I am in dilemma

Akajon already back in his country,Uzbekistan ,now staying in his sister's house.I managed to contact him today via prepaid call card which lasted for nearly 20 minutes.I felt sad when he mentioned that his family is trying very hard to make him stay there for good by marrying him to a local woman.I dont think they even bother to consider me as Akajon's wife here anymore.No guilty feelings whatsoever.I also felt hurt,my heart is aching terribly.After all the troubles I went through with Akajon,this is what I got from them...Or maybe I am the one who is selfish here.
I am jumping the gun too fast,I guess.But in my mind, I can forsee that I will never meet him ever again,what more to stay as a married couple.Perhaps after six years together,this is the best thing that we should do,to walk on opposite direction.Me my way and you your way.I am too old to continue this kind of life style.It's becoming to heavy for me to shoulder the burden by myself.Or maybe I am acting weird now because my mind is not stable due to Aunt flo stopping by last night.Perhaps I am making an irrirational decision.Too early to consider and decide on this option of going separate ways.But Akajon,I am hurt and confused now.What must I do...?You have your own problems there to settle and I have my own problems as well.

I think I should let both of us cool down and relax for a while.I know there's a lot of constraint there.So,I have to be patient with you also.Akajon, if I have enough money,surely I will fly to your country as soon as I got the chance,but my constraint is also money,just like you.I dont know for long more I would be able to withstand this pressure,Allahu'alam.Please Akajon,dont play me out.Dont use me as your puppet..Dont abuse me...Dont pressure me...I am going to burst anytime,if you ever do these things to me..I cannot stand the pressure no more...coz Akajan,I am really in dilemma..Ya Allah,please help me to be patient and steadfast in your deen,ameen....

P/S I LOVE YOU

Assalamualaikum Akajon,

From last night I was worried sick about you.Some how or rather,I have this uneasy feelings that you might face problem at the Tashkent Airport.That was the reason why when I sent an earlier warning message to your cousin Otabek and Umid (Facebook) ,I wrote to them that you are coming home on 29 Jan and specifically I mentioned Uncle Mirshod to be present at the airport to greet you and to ensure that the local authorities will not harm you in any way.I couldnt sleep the whole night thinking about you.This morning I woke up and send sms to you but you did not reply until this afternoon.Alhamdulillah,I am glad that now you are already out of trouble.I did email Damir and asked him to call your family members.He replied my email by saying that you are now with your family.Azman is also asking about you.

I told him through sms that you have been arrested for few hours and later released by the authorities.I know you have been through a lot lately.It's all test from Allah for everybody.

I just wanna mentioned something here.Yesterday morning,my ex husband was very kind to me.He drove me all the way from Shah Alam to Damir's house to collect your handphone and wallet.I waited for Ruslan,Damir's son to come down for half n hour.Finally,he came down with his mother.MasyaAllah,.I was very happy to see her and Ruslan.I took out RM50 form your wallet and gave the money to Ruslan.She invited me to the house but I cant go since I came with family.Then after that,I asked my exhusband to go to Wangsa Melawati to the Tuition Centre.Alhamdulillah,there was somebody inside there but that young man did not know you.I forgot his name,Anyway,I managed to find your things.I think they put all inside your blue bag.I even brought back the electric jug back to Shah Alam.i did not see anything else except what's  already put inside your bag.What happened to your pair of blue jeans? I also couldnt find your hp charger.All rooms seems to be tidied up by somebody.First I couldnt locate your bag but when I look through one corner where they placed all the discarded computers and other staff, I saw your blue bag.Subhanallah.

Sayang, I bought a new charger for you and a new sim card registered under my name.I did not do roaming services yet.If you plan to use the simcard pls tell me so that I can call Maxis.When you sms me today afternoon,did you use Uncle Mirshod hp number or did you buy a new sim card for yourself.Pls tell me also how to use the call card.

Another thing before I forget.Did you collect your luggage?I put your baju and everything inside your mother's brown travelling bag.Please look for your belt,perfume big bottle and small bottle,toothbrush,cotton buds,towel,baju,trousers,underpants.I cannot put sharp things inside,so I took away the scissors and nail clippers and also shavers.On top of it all,I put lots and lots of biscuits for you to distribute to your family,relatives and friends.

Please write to me as soon as possible and tell me about what happened to you after the Lenggeng deportation to KLIA camp.I really wanna know.

When I went to see you at Lenggeng camp,actually I called up Azman first a day earlier and informed him of your whereabout.Then when I decided to go and see you the next day (Thursday) I sms to Azman and asked him whether he is wanna come with me to Lenggeng.He didnt reply,so i assumed that he is not coming.Then on Saturday morning he called me and asked about you.I told him that immigration is sending you to airport for deportation,he said he will come with his wife to KLIA .I saw him wth the wife at KLIA around 5pm.I came earlier with Malina.Immigration did not want to take your luggage.They said this is their standard procedures for IRan,Iraqand Uzbek nationals.No luggage can be given in KLIA except before that.Allah is able to all things,allahu Akbar.The rest is history.A lot persuasions and talks going on between Nasimkhan and Immigration personnels.Finally they agreed to check in your lugagge and also agreed to let us see you before boarding.I saw you.You looked diffferent altogether without beard and moustache.

Sayang,my handphone sudah rosak.So today,I withdraw RM300 and bought a new Nokia hp which cost me RM250.Balance in Maybank Account is around RM3k.So far, no credit from Bahrom.Perhaps if you have time,you can email him.If you need money,please let me know,OK.

I am tired now sayang.I am having my period today,so I cannot pray.I hope you be patient and do your very best to please Allah and do good to your parents especially to your mother.Send my salam to all your family members.

I already miss you..and will be missing you...Your blue sarung is with me,I exchange it with a new sarung for you to wear insyaAllah during your solat.

Wassalam

P/S I love you

Siti Soleha Diary- Mixed feelings

Day 60

Akajon called me in the morning around 10something.He said he was going to be sent to another camp which is nearer to KLIA.I really hope to see him tomorrow.May Allah make it happen,ameen.I did not do much during first half of the day except taking a 30 minutes nap.Later after zuhr,myself,Maryam and her father went to deliver    hampers.Finished everything,we went for makan at Rock Cafe in Subang.Ate pizza.Then went to fetch Fiza. I prayed Asr  in the Sunway Hospital today.Then went to Imperial Subang,bought things for the house.Came back,prayed magrib and went out again with Maryam to Giant.Bought socks and hp charger for Akajon and biscuits for Akajon.s family.Came back,took shower and prayed Isya prayer.Hopefully,tomorrow,everythig runs smoothly.I have to collect Akajon's hp and wallet from Damir's son  in Setapak,KL then if enough time ,I wanna go and check out whether there's people in Wangsa Melawati's office where Akajon put his things.I am feeling tired now.Better take a rest and sleepnow.Long day tomorrow...insyaAllah

Siti Soleha Diary- Allahu Akbar!!!

Day 59

Allahu Akbar,Allahu Akbar,Allahu Akbar.Allah is the Greatest.
I woke up early morning,washed myself,got dressed,prayed subh,make dua and walked out from the house headed straight  to the commuter station.Took train,changed train and then took taxi which cost me RM40-00 per trip to Depot lenggeng.Waited there for almost 1 hour,then finally Allah made me saw Aziz after so long...58 days to be exact.I held back my tears fearing that the officers might noticed and then started thinking funny.Bought some stuff for Aziz after finished  teleconversation for 30 minutes.Then walked to the other side,to meet another officer named Nizam asking for updates.He told me that the Uzbek Official are coming.Subhanallh,I kinda couldnt believed what i heard.Then went out and saw the same taxi driver already waiting for me.Alhamdulillah reached Seremban station around 1pm.Took train back to KL Sentral but after 10 minutes,the train came to a halt.Had to wait for 1 hour to get it moved by another train.Later,we changed train and finally reached my destination around 4 pm.Around 6pm Aziz called me.This was a pleasant surprise as I was the one who should call him.Another surprise,Nizam let Akajon borrowed his hp to talk with me.Tuuo my surprise and delight,Aziz told me that the immigration has found his passport and now they are ready to deport him on Saturday that is day after tomorrow.Aziz urged me to expedite the booking of plane ticket which I finally managed to settled it in 2 hours time,Alhamdulillah.I still couldnt believe that this is happening to Akajon.It's a miracle...I am very tired now but feeling happy that Akajon is going back home soon.

Siti Soleha Diary- Akajon is suffering

Day 58

I called Akajon today.He is suffering big time in Depot Lenggeng.I can understand why the frustration ,the place is heavily packed with all kind of people ,filthy dirty and noisy surrounding and the worst part is about the food being served on a filthy unwashed contaminated food trays.Subhanallah,I really cannot imagine how all these people inside there can cope with this kind of situation.Later I called Uzbek Embassy,managed to talk to a Mr Nasimhan.He is unfriendly and unhelpful,all he said was I am busy now,I will contact you and ask for my name and contact number. What an idiot he was, as if I dont know that Uzbek Embassy is so quiet and peaceful,no people to attend to...what nonsense,all I can say is that he is not happy to take my call.Very sad and frustrated to deal with this group of people.Why he want to work in this area if he is not even interested to help his own fellow country man.I should lodge a complaint to Uzbek government to sack these bunch of lazy and good for nothing people with better men.Perhaps they dont have better qualified man to begin with,I am starting to wonder...perhaps all of their people behave in the same manner,couldn't be bothered what so ever to their people except they are only interested in getting their pay checks every month credited to their accounts.Then,I called up Depot Lenggeng.After trying a few times,alhamdulillah I managed to speak with a lady officer.I guess the Immigration side had faxed the necessary forms to be filled by the Uzbek Embassy.I asked the Uzbeki man in the embassy whether anyone called from the Immigaration,and he replied yes.I also asked the officer in Lenggeng and the lady told me that she is still waiting for the uzbek officer to send back the documents to them for further processing.I pray and hope that Allah swt will make things easy for all of us,ameen.I know you are suffering big time in there Akajon,but be patient...insyaAllah I will try to go tomorrow morning to the depot to meet you as well as try to gather some informations from the immigration officer.Till then Akajon.

Siti Soleha Diary-Eating too Much

Day 57


Sew syuhaida's baju kebaya but still not completed ,insyaallah tomorrow i do the alterations.Every single day i am feeling tired.I think this is due to my age.I am getting older and now lacking of strength.always tired and want to rest or sleep.
Akajon,I am so sorry I couldnt help you  much now.Damir is still not around,so I dont know what to do except wait for him to return from Bangkok this week end.I will call him next Monday insyaallah.I also dont wat to call you because you friend there will ask me for rm10 top up.I find this is too much for me to bear.I hated him for doing this to his fellow muslim brothers and sisters.I ask Allah swt for help and guidance.May Allah swt make us peservere and steadfast in our deen,ameen

Siti Soleha Diary- Sewing Day

Day 56

Sew from morning till evening.Damir called,informed me that Uzbek Embassy requested the Immigration Officer to contact them regarding Akajon's matter.I felt a bit sad coz I cant help much here furthermore,Damir is going to Bangkok again and I can only contact him sometime next week.Pity for Akajon...have to wait till next week...may Allah swt make it easy for all of us,ameen

I am feeling very exhausted now.Better to sleep now...

Siti Soleha Diary- Busy Day for Me

Day 55

Time is running very fast now.Too much things to do. Fiza's wedding just round the corner.I am even too tired to update my diary daily.Alhamdulillah,Damir replied to my email.Hopefully he is able to get some information from Uzbek Embassy about Akajon travel pass.My children bought me 2 new baju for Fiza's wedding and a tudung,alhamdulillah.May Allah reward those people who has been so generous and kind to me,ameen.

Siti Soleha Diary- Immigration Matters

Day 52

Alhamdulillah, I managed to talk with Akajon through somebody's mobile phone which he charged RM10.00 credit topup.That was yesterday and today since I called Akajon and later Akajon called me,he again ask Akajon for another additional topup of RM10.00 and the owner does not even  lose a single cent as he only make miss calls for contacting .MasyaAllah,these people really know how to make business in this immigration camp despite tight and strict ruling.
Alhamdulillah,now I am feeling a bit relaxed.I managed to contact the Immigaration Officer Bahagian Pengusiran and he informed me their procedures and guidelines.Firstly I have to obtain travel pass/passport from uzbek embassy.Then I have to go to Depot Lenggeng and show the the documents.Only then they will informed me when to buy the flight ticket.Hopefully,they can expedite the whole thing.I am already too tired to go through all these red tapes.To my surprise,the office was quite accomodating and was willing to answer all my questions.InsyaAllah,I try to arrange for meeting with the officer as well as see Akajon there with Damir on next Monday.I am feeling very sleepy now.Need to take a break..

Siti Soleha Diary- Busy Day for Everyone

Day 50
Today is 19th of January 2011

Woke up early morning,pray subh,then listened to ceramah for 1 hour,washed clothes,took shower,got dressed,checked the house,everything ok,took my bike out and shut the door.Cycled halfway,pedal came out,had to push the bike,while doing that,all the six eggs I was carrying in the plastic bag drop on the road.Every single egg was smashed to pieces.Alhamdulillah,later I managed to fix the pedal.Cycled to work around 9.50pm.

Finished work around 1.55pm.rushed home.I saw my brother parked his car in front of my sister's house.He was sound asleep sitting at the driver's seat.He did not even noticed I already came back home.My sister,came back around the same time.we both prayed zuhr.Zambri gave me Rm200,he also took same amount with my sister from the RM600 ( khairiat kematian).Quickly,my sister and I got into her car.She drove me to the bus terminal at Sg Dua.My sister had to rush to go for meeting today at 2.30pm at Sg Ara,located further up the road.No more bus going to Shah Alam at that time, so I bought bus ticket going to KL instead after calling my exhusband asking him whether he could fetch me at Jalan Duta,KL which he replied boleh.

I took express bus from Terminal Sg Dua Penang at 2.30pm and alhamdulillah reached KL Jalan Duta around 7.20pm.Just enough time to pray asr.Later continued praying Magrib.I was feeling hungry,so went to the stall nearby the bus station, ate nasi lemak and drank a glass of teh ais.Waited for my family to fetch me at the front of the bus terminal.They came around 30 minutes later.Then went for dinner at Chow Kit Road,pusing-pusing makan angin for a while and then headed back to Shah Alam.Body all feeling very tired with a bad headache and aching body.