Tuesday, March 8, 2011

I am in dilemma...

Today alhamdulillah is the second day I am teaching Hana English language.Akajon skyped with me around 2pm.I was so excited.But now after exchanging messages I realised that Akajon is not that serious about legalising my marriage to him.I felt very upset so much so that I couldnt speak to him for a while.Perhaps I am the one who is taking this thing too seriously without considering his problems there.nevertheless, I still wanted him to promise me to find out more details about this matter.I dont think I can go through like he went through recently.It's too painful for me,too straineous,so much of hardship and difficulties.Thinking about this also make my spine shivers.I cried a lot today thinking about my situation now.I am in dilemma whether to join Akajon there for good or come back here.Everthing seem to be blurry and uncertain.My idea is to be with him as a lawfully wedded wife and stay there with a valid visa, but his idea is totally opposite of mine.He rather want me to stay with him unregistered with the intention of residing there for the rest of my life..I cannot decide which direction I should go,it's too heavy on me to consider right now.This is not a game.This is reality.I pray to Allah swt to guide me to the straight path and not go astray, ameen.

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