Akajon N Me on Skype Today

[1:01:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: can u hear me?\
[1:01:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i can hear u
[1:02:14 PM] ummuhanna1: you have cam
[1:03:00 PM] *** Call ended, duration 01:54 ***
[1:03:20 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[1:03:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no mic no cam
[1:04:04 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[1:04:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: h r u?
[1:04:31 PM] ummuhanna1: can u hear me
[1:04:41 PM] ummuhanna1: im ok alhamdulillah
[1:04:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no speaker
[1:04:54 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[1:05:12 PM] ummuhanna1: how's yesterday meeting?
[1:05:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not much
[1:05:57 PM] ummuhanna1: what they asked you?
[1:06:02 PM] ummuhanna1: im very curious
[1:06:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: who made the pasportfor me?
[1:06:41 PM] ummuhanna1: did you tell them?
[1:06:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not really
[1:07:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my uncle say " if u can dont tell them"
[1:07:32 PM] ummuhanna1: did you read email i sent u?
[1:07:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ow i m reading
[1:08:55 PM] ummuhanna1: r u done yet?
[1:09:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no
[1:09:07 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[1:13:18 PM] ummuhanna1: belum habis baca lagi ke?
[1:13:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: blm
[1:15:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok dah
[1:16:00 PM] ummuhanna1: u can replay after u done here
[1:16:04 PM] ummuhanna1: reply
[1:16:26 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: see la  how
[1:16:32 PM] ummuhanna1: you malas laa
[1:17:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what exactly imortant u asked in this emails?
[1:17:39 PM] ummuhanna1: r u ready to go anytime?
[1:18:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: well i no passport
[1:18:31 PM] ummuhanna1: so my q is if you have r u ready to go
[1:19:20 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if i have pasport i need a sticker in my passport which says i m allowed to leave abroad
[1:20:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if i cannot get that then i need to cross the border in secret , may be to kazakistan via land then try to fly to dubai
[1:20:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: which is risky
[1:21:01 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: they might catch in action, so its not easy decision to make , sayang
[1:21:23 PM] ummuhanna1: the sticker you r talking about
[1:21:39 PM] ummuhanna1: is it difficult to be approved?
[1:21:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:23:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: a possible scenario :  i get convicted of a crime for my passport then no approval to leave the country
[1:24:05 PM] ummuhanna1: will they put yoi in jail?
[1:24:36 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[1:25:23 PM] ummuhanna1: let say if you tell them the truth wil it change anything?
[1:25:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[1:26:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already promise to my uncle not to tell
[1:26:19 PM] ummuhanna1: anyboby you know or heard being convicted of same crime?
[1:26:39 PM] ummuhanna1: anybody
[1:26:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[1:27:00 PM] ummuhanna1: you should ask around
[1:27:08 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dotn want
[1:27:36 PM] ummuhanna1: then in this case is it better for you to find a job
[1:28:57 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: well i want to work
[1:29:09 PM] ummuhanna1: any offer yet?
[1:29:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not yet
[1:29:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: they might refuse to hire coz no passport
[1:30:58 PM] ummuhanna1: i know this is a very painful experience for you
[1:31:17 PM] ummuhanna1: even in your country you cant apply for job
[1:31:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: and more painfull is to be refused to enter Paradise
[1:32:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m not suprised
[1:32:52 PM] ummuhanna1: me either
[1:33:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allah promised to test those who say we believe
[1:33:51 PM] ummuhanna1: i reminded myself of that beautiful verses in Quran,the one I email
[1:34:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: last verses of baqara?
[1:34:22 PM] ummuhanna1: naam
[1:37:11 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah tested those that only can tahan going through that test..in your case,Allah is testing you like this ..insyaallah you would be rewarded for your holding strong to your deen
[1:38:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i hope from Allah
[1:38:28 PM] ummuhanna1: hope comes with fear as well
[1:38:44 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[1:38:54 PM] ummuhanna1: onajan sihat?
[1:39:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i should fear Allah and only Him
[1:39:26 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: onajon is ok
[1:39:38 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah Akbar
[1:39:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my father always scoll my mother
[1:39:56 PM] ummuhanna1: itu cerita lama
[1:40:22 PM] ummuhanna1: i think he's been scolding onajon from your childhood dys..
[1:40:49 PM] ummuhanna1: i really pity onajon
[1:41:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: he even beat my mother before
[1:42:07 PM] ummuhanna1: May Allah swt protect you and onajon from your father misconduct,ameen
[1:42:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ameen
[1:42:55 PM] ummuhanna1: have you sit down with your father and talk?
[1:43:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont want to talk
[1:44:26 PM] ummuhanna1: you must at least protect onajon from being harassed and beaten by him.
[1:45:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: when he says bad things to my mother i just keep quite
[1:46:22 PM] ummuhanna1: Ask Allah swt to give you the strength to be able to give nasihat to your father with wisdom.
[1:47:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i brought some books full of wisdom to the house . he is reading them
[1:47:21 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaAllah
[1:47:33 PM] ummuhanna1: is it in uzbek or russian?
[1:47:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: uzbek
[1:47:51 PM] ummuhanna1: you know something?
[1:48:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: wat
[1:48:27 PM] ummuhanna1: i really feel like meeting your father and sit dwon with him  and talk
[1:48:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what ever
[1:49:01 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont have a father since young
[1:49:12 PM] ummuhanna1: my father passes away
[1:49:18 PM] ummuhanna1: passed
[1:49:30 PM] ummuhanna1: sorry if i said something wrong here
[1:49:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i wish my father dies soon
[1:49:52 PM] ummuhanna1: it's just only a thought that crosses my mind
[1:50:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i know
[1:50:19 PM] ummuhanna1: Ask for the best for him
[1:50:29 PM] ummuhanna1: you dont know
[1:51:23 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if its best for me for him to die then i want him dead
[1:51:32 PM] ummuhanna1: Through you Allah might make his heart softer and become a better slave
[1:52:05 PM] ummuhanna1: You are saying with heart full of hatred
[1:52:16 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: I hope Allah reward me
[1:52:32 PM] ummuhanna1: Ameen
[1:52:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i feel the hatred from my father towards my mother
[1:52:56 PM] ummuhanna1: I can understand tthat
[1:53:28 PM] ummuhanna1: Has he ever beaten you b4?
[1:53:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:54:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: his words are more painfull to me than his beating
[1:54:26 PM] ummuhanna1: you told me that too
[1:54:38 PM] ummuhanna1: about you not being his son
[1:55:06 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: there are many other words which are may be even more painfull
[1:55:23 PM] ummuhanna1: he's and old man dying anytime soon
[1:55:34 PM] ummuhanna1: please have some mercy on him
[1:55:47 PM] ummuhanna1: forgive his past actions
[1:56:22 PM] ummuhanna1: the rest leave it to Allah swt
[1:56:44 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think i want to go now
[1:56:59 PM] ummuhanna1: why hurry
[1:57:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: its almost 1 hour
[1:57:15 PM] ummuhanna1: nak balik rumah ke?
[1:57:29 PM] ummuhanna1: not yet 1hr
[1:57:37 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be i want to meet my good friend
[1:57:53 PM] ummuhanna1: you c me first laa sayang
[1:58:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already saw u just now
[1:58:14 PM] ummuhanna1: when
[1:58:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u mean cam ke?
[1:58:37 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta paya cam
[1:58:39 PM] ummuhanna1: ya
[1:58:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: why u want me to see ur picture?
[1:58:57 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont need to see ur picture
[1:59:01 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i love u
[1:59:02 PM] ummuhanna1: coz i want u to remeber me
[1:59:11 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: without looking at u
[1:59:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont need to see u to remmeber u
[1:59:39 PM] ummuhanna1: r u still there?
[2:00:06 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: r u there?
[2:00:08 PM] *** Call ended, duration 56:04 ***
[2:00:43 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[2:00:53 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[2:01:03 PM] ummuhanna1: nak pegi dah ke?
[2:01:39 PM] ummuhanna1: can you read my text message?
[2:01:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: [1:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi:

<<< i dont need to see u to remmeber u
[2:02:18 PM] ummuhanna1: at least i wanna smile
[2:02:30 PM] ummuhanna1: and show u my big teeth
[2:02:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta paya
[2:02:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ada ramai org kat sisni
[2:03:07 PM] ummuhanna1: r u going to tashkent?
[2:03:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta faham ke?
[2:03:13 PM] ummuhanna1: faham
[2:03:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m waiting for investigation
[2:03:39 PM] ummuhanna1: ic
[2:04:05 PM] ummuhanna1: i might go there in May
[2:04:13 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[2:04:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: inshaAllah
[2:04:21 PM] ummuhanna1: i try to save some money now
[2:04:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[2:04:32 PM] ummuhanna1: is it ok with u?
[2:04:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes. only i hope i will be free to meet u
[2:05:24 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaallah i have to correspond to you first b4 i decide
[2:05:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sure
[2:05:43 PM] ummuhanna1: if not no point going there at all
[2:05:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: off course
[2:06:28 PM] ummuhanna1: i pray and make dua for all of us
[2:06:53 PM] ummuhanna1: there's wisdom behind all these happenings.
[2:07:04 PM] ummuhanna1: so,be patient..
[2:07:15 PM] ummuhanna1: i love u sayang
[2:07:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i love u too
[2:07:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[2:07:30 PM] ummuhanna1: i go now
[2:07:37 PM] ummuhanna1: ok assalamualaikum
[2:07:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: waalaikum assalaam
[2:08:01 PM] *** Call ended, duration 07:18 ***

A little conversation with Akajon..

[3/8/2011 2:57:03 PM] *** Call ended, duration 55:51 ***
[12:48:09 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[12:58:18 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[12:58:50 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[1:07:45 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[1:08:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: hello
[1:08:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no mic
[1:08:35 PM] ummuhanna1: so sad
[1:08:46 PM] ummuhanna1: no video too
[1:08:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no
[1:09:17 PM] ummuhanna1: can you see me
[1:09:19 PM] ummuhanna1: if i on
[1:09:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: try
[1:09:35 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[1:10:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes i saw u
[1:10:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: then i quickle off it coz many ppl around
[1:10:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im in cafe
[1:10:57 PM] ummuhanna1: do yoy have any other computer with mic and video there
[1:11:04 PM] ummuhanna1: you
[1:11:27 PM] ummuhanna1: if you can see me that means you can on your video too
[1:11:43 PM] ummuhanna1: try to on your video for me
[1:11:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no cam
[1:11:56 PM] ummuhanna1: ic
[1:12:11 PM] ummuhanna1: you read my emails
[1:12:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:12:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Rustam Yuldashev
[1:12:39 PM] ummuhanna1: you know his family?
[1:12:57 PM] ummuhanna1: they lived in Tashkent
[1:13:09 PM] ummuhanna1: wealthy family
[1:13:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not yet
[1:13:22 PM] ummuhanna1: try to find out OK
[1:13:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i need to find out his father's name
[1:14:06 PM] ummuhanna1: if you go to facebook you might find some info there.many pics of his family
[1:14:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: so many Rustam Yuldashev in facebook which one
[1:14:30 PM] ummuhanna1: form USA
[1:14:38 PM] ummuhanna1: from USA
[1:14:59 PM] ummuhanna1: 24 years old
[1:15:04 PM] ummuhanna1: very young
[1:15:14 PM] ummuhanna1: attractive
[1:15:21 PM] ummuhanna1: tall
[1:16:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see
[1:17:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if u know his facebook page adress just copy and send to me now
[1:18:01 PM] ummuhanna1: i try
[1:18:04 PM] ummuhanna1: wait
[1:18:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ainul Mardiah
[1:19:50 PM] ummuhanna1: yes
[1:20:02 PM] ummuhanna1: his wife
[1:20:09 PM] ummuhanna1: my exhusband's niece
[1:20:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok then i got his page
[1:20:27 PM] ummuhanna1: ok.take alook at his pics
[1:20:44 PM] ummuhanna1: family very beautiful
[1:20:53 PM] ummuhanna1: especially his sister
[1:20:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i cannot i  think i need to be friend with him 1st no?
[1:21:10 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont know
[1:21:14 PM] ummuhanna1: try laa
[1:21:23 PM] ummuhanna1: maryam can go in
[1:21:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: how u manage to see his pics
[1:21:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ?
[1:21:35 PM] ummuhanna1: through maryam facebook
[1:21:52 PM] ummuhanna1: log in to your facebook now
[1:22:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m
[1:22:07 PM] ummuhanna1: i sned his web address to you
[1:22:10 PM] ummuhanna1: send
[1:28:50 PM] ummuhanna1: anyway insyaallah i try to get his father's name for you
[1:28:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[1:29:08 PM] ummuhanna1: u ok sayang
[1:29:10 PM] ummuhanna1: any new
[1:29:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i wrote litle emails to u
[1:29:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sikit ja
[1:29:35 PM] ummuhanna1: jazakallah khairan
[1:29:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta banyak
[1:29:48 PM] ummuhanna1: tell me a bit about your father
[1:30:07 PM] ummuhanna1: how did he react upon seeing you
[1:30:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my father got drunk yesterday
[1:30:16 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaallah
[1:30:20 PM] ummuhanna1: any reason
[1:30:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m back
[1:30:33 PM] ummuhanna1: he's not happy or what
[1:30:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think his happy
[1:31:02 PM] ummuhanna1: how;d you know for sure
[1:31:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m just guessing
[1:31:42 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: he scolded me yesterday very badly
[1:32:44 PM] ummuhanna1: for not coming back sooner..?
[1:33:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no , for not bringing my shoes from tashkent
[1:34:33 PM] ummuhanna1: I think he just used the shoes excuse to scold  you badly...he need to let go of his steam...dont feel bad
[1:34:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think he hates me
[1:35:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i tihnk he hates me and my moter nmy 3 sisters
[1:36:44 PM] ummuhanna1: he's not in his stable mind moreover I think he has very little iman in his heart.Give him time to sober..perhaps you both can sit down face to face when the right time comes..ask Allah to give you taufik and hidayah..
[1:37:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i hate hm too
[1:38:23 PM] ummuhanna1: dont show your hatred to him sayang.I think it's not good for you and the family.better way is for you to remain silent and be patient with him..i know it's very hard thing to do,but you must try
[1:38:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see how
[1:39:30 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah is testing all of us...be it good or bad
[1:40:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allah is testing what w do at a given situation. Its a good reminder
[1:40:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: we
[1:41:07 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[1:41:24 PM] ummuhanna1: any news about your job applications?
[1:42:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my father is trying to find a job for me in TAshkent
[1:42:57 PM] ummuhanna1: private or government?
[1:43:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: kinda private
[1:43:25 PM] ummuhanna1: is he staying with your mother in the same house in your hometown?
[1:44:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:44:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[1:44:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u ok?
[1:45:04 PM] ummuhanna1: why so fast
[1:45:19 PM] ummuhanna1: it's not even one hour yet
[1:45:31 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m already more than 1 hour in cc
[1:45:58 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: coz i read emails 1st b4 i talked to u in skype
[1:46:17 PM] ummuhanna1: onajon OK?
[1:46:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she ok. she cooked rice pilaf semalam. sdap
[1:46:55 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaallah
[1:47:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: in a big dish
[1:47:10 PM] ummuhanna1: just like us
[1:47:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: we had a small kenduri
[1:47:27 PM] ummuhanna1: oh ic
[1:47:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: using wood in outdoors
[1:47:54 PM] ummuhanna1: surely the fod tasted better with burnt woods
[1:47:59 PM] ummuhanna1: food
[1:48:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: exactly
[1:48:14 PM] ummuhanna1: are you in town now?
[1:48:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:48:43 PM] ummuhanna1: naik bas ke taxi?
[1:48:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: jalankaki
[1:48:57 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[1:49:15 PM] ummuhanna1: do you want to see me b4 you go?
[1:49:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[1:49:48 PM] ummuhanna1: you can see me
[1:49:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u off urself ke?
[1:49:57 PM] ummuhanna1: tak
[1:50:16 PM] ummuhanna1: nampak tak
[1:50:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: da
[1:50:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: dah nampak dah
[1:50:41 PM] ummuhanna1: i look ok to you
[1:50:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: es
[1:50:52 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[1:50:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes dont worry sayang
[1:51:20 PM] ummuhanna1: i must worry
[1:51:28 PM] ummuhanna1: you are far away and im here
[1:51:43 PM] ummuhanna1: i cant help it
[1:52:19 PM] ummuhanna1: maybe next time you find cc with mic and cam ok
[1:52:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[1:52:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: where r u?
[1:52:47 PM] ummuhanna1: the one that your mother used to go
[1:52:53 PM] ummuhanna1: im in malina's room
[1:53:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m in that place now but they have only one mic and it was busy
[1:53:19 PM] ummuhanna1: im sleeping in her room also but on the floor
[1:53:45 PM] ummuhanna1: belilah satu
[1:53:52 PM] ummuhanna1: is it expensive?
[1:53:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: inshaAllah
[1:54:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not really, but when u dont have money then ...
[1:54:47 PM] ummuhanna1: i understand sayang
[1:55:05 PM] ummuhanna1: hopefully Allah will increase our riz,ameen
[1:55:14 PM] ummuhanna1: rizk
[1:55:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Alhamdu li Allah
[1:55:36 PM] ummuhanna1: i try not to spend much here too
[1:55:58 PM] ummuhanna1: even top up i try to budget
[1:56:08 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:56:13 PM] ummuhanna1: i want to go see you in May insyaallah
[1:56:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ur sms es to me is expensive sayang
[1:56:32 PM] ummuhanna1: i know.
[1:56:39 PM] ummuhanna1: but it's worth it..
[1:58:12 PM] ummuhanna1: my mind wont be at ease if i did not hear from you...so,i sms and try to find out if you r ok or not...so,keep in touch is a good thing for me to do
[1:58:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: here i can buy sms packages like 70 sms for 3 usdollar
[1:58:44 PM] ummuhanna1: RM10 for 70 sms.mahal ke?
[1:59:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think u pay 50 sen for one sms
[1:59:34 PM] ummuhanna1: yes,correct,correct,correct
[1:59:48 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: like for 20 sms u pay 10 ringgit
[1:59:57 PM] ummuhanna1: more or less
[2:00:31 PM] ummuhanna1: money is not worth that much compared to hearing from you..
[2:01:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: there are things money cant buy
[2:01:14 PM] ummuhanna1: like what?
[2:01:39 PM] ummuhanna1: money cant buy love?
[2:02:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: how is hanna?
[2:02:12 PM] ummuhanna1: she's upset with me
[2:02:23 PM] ummuhanna1: belum pegi sekolah
[2:02:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: wy?
[2:02:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: why upset?
[2:03:14 PM] ummuhanna1: the govvt didnt register her yet in any school.it seems the officer to approve her application not a round this week
[2:03:38 PM] ummuhanna1: next week school holidays.so,hanna cuti 3 minggu
[2:03:44 PM] ummuhanna1: dia marah saya
[2:04:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta pay marah
[2:04:46 PM] ummuhanna1: anyway im happy to see her read quran after magrib every night
[2:04:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:05:00 PM] ummuhanna1: she's abit different from the rest
[2:05:09 PM] ummuhanna1: pray 5 times a day
[2:05:16 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:05:48 PM] ummuhanna1: that's a consolation for me
[2:05:54 PM] ummuhanna1: to stay in this house
[2:06:09 PM] ummuhanna1: and see her growing up
[2:06:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: and what a consolation it is !!!
[2:06:24 PM] ummuhanna1: allahu akabr
[2:06:28 PM] ummuhanna1: akbar
[2:06:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allahu Akbar
[2:06:36 PM] ummuhanna1: even na9 is changing
[2:06:42 PM] ummuhanna1: not like praying
[2:06:44 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:06:56 PM] ummuhanna1: but more to becoming like my frind now
[2:07:06 PM] ummuhanna1: like to listen to me and open up
[2:07:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:07:16 PM] ummuhanna1: even maryam
[2:07:22 PM] ummuhanna1: but the rest
[2:07:57 PM] ummuhanna1: may allah give them taufik and hidayah,ameen
[2:08:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u just do ur job the rest should not be ur concern
[2:08:48 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[2:08:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok sayang
[2:08:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[2:09:22 PM] ummuhanna1: now Allah is giving me the chance to do good to my children.One day I might not have the chance anymore
[2:09:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: exactly
[2:09:36 PM] ummuhanna1: I am thinking sayang
[2:09:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what?
[2:09:58 PM] ummuhanna1: i think you already know
[2:10:16 PM] ummuhanna1: im thinking to leave them and stay with you
[2:10:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sure
[2:10:34 PM] ummuhanna1: so i want to spend as much time with them as i could
[2:10:53 PM] ummuhanna1: i plan to migrate in December 2011
[2:11:15 PM] ummuhanna1: when i got my EPFmoney,biiznillah
[2:11:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u will leave them one day anyway, may be b4 u even meet me
[2:11:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: so value the moments
[2:12:18 PM] ummuhanna1: we can only plan BUT Allah swt is the ultimate decision maker...
[2:12:31 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allahu Akabr
[2:12:48 PM] ummuhanna1: I ask for the best of this dunya and the best of aqirah,ameen
[2:13:14 PM] ummuhanna1: did you read the surah an nahl i sent you in emails?
[2:13:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[2:13:35 PM] ummuhanna1: it's a good reminder for all of us.
[2:13:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: off course
[2:14:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now sayang
[2:14:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i love u
[2:14:40 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: assalamu alaikum
[2:14:56 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[2:15:07 PM] ummuhanna1: ok sayang
[2:15:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: be patient
[2:15:19 PM] ummuhanna1: waalaikumsalam
[2:15:36 PM] ummuhanna1: i know,it' very very hard and painful for me here
[2:15:51 PM] ummuhanna1: but i always ask allah to give me strength
[2:16:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: think about HELL
[2:16:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: assalamu alaikum
[2:16:21 PM] ummuhanna1: waalaikumsalam
[2:16:28 PM] *** Call ended, duration 1:06:52 ***
AbdulAziz bin abi

I am in dilemma...

Today alhamdulillah is the second day I am teaching Hana English language.Akajon skyped with me around 2pm.I was so excited.But now after exchanging messages I realised that Akajon is not that serious about legalising my marriage to him.I felt very upset so much so that I couldnt speak to him for a while.Perhaps I am the one who is taking this thing too seriously without considering his problems there.nevertheless, I still wanted him to promise me to find out more details about this matter.I dont think I can go through like he went through recently.It's too painful for me,too straineous,so much of hardship and difficulties.Thinking about this also make my spine shivers.I cried a lot today thinking about my situation now.I am in dilemma whether to join Akajon there for good or come back here.Everthing seem to be blurry and uncertain.My idea is to be with him as a lawfully wedded wife and stay there with a valid visa, but his idea is totally opposite of mine.He rather want me to stay with him unregistered with the intention of residing there for the rest of my life..I cannot decide which direction I should go,it's too heavy on me to consider right now.This is not a game.This is reality.I pray to Allah swt to guide me to the straight path and not go astray, ameen.

Life is boring without you

Went breakfast with Hana,Milah,Sheda,Naufal and papa Hana.Then went to Tesco for weekly marketing.In the evening I went with Na9 to buy pasar malam food for dinner.Today,suddenly,I feel lonely and bored.Sent sms to Akajon.It seems that he is having a good time with his family and relatives whereas i am suffering here inside out,outside in.My children presence is not much of help to me,in fact I feel like I wanna disappear somewhere further away from everyone.I really need a break,a big break...