Interview Day and Confusing Day

At 3pm,I went for job interview at Anis Pharmacy nearby .I am still waiting for Onajon to reply to my emails or at least sent me sms, but till this time no news from him whatsoever.I dont know whether to feel sad or just couldnt be bothered with the current situation.I am a bit confused right now.So, I take it,no news is good news...

Allahu'alam

Friday April 1 2011

[4/5/2011 1:03:40 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Assalamualaikum
[4/5/2011 1:03:49 PM] ummuhanna1: assalamualaikum
[4/5/2011 1:03:59 PM] ummuhanna1: walalikumsalam
[4/5/2011 1:04:05 PM] ummuhanna1: u ok?
[4/5/2011 1:04:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im ok
[4/5/2011 1:04:19 PM] ummuhanna1: u read my emails
[4/5/2011 1:04:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: h r u?
[4/5/2011 1:04:25 PM] ummuhanna1: im fine
[4/5/2011 1:04:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im reading it now
[4/5/2011 1:04:34 PM] ummuhanna1: just had lunch
[4/5/2011 1:04:43 PM] ummuhanna1: sambal sotong with rice
[4/5/2011 1:04:52 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[4/5/2011 1:08:02 PM] ummuhanna1: r u done yet?
[4/5/2011 1:08:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: wai
[4/5/2011 1:09:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im done
[4/5/2011 1:10:00 PM] ummuhanna1: what do you think?
[4/5/2011 1:10:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know what to think
[4/5/2011 1:10:20 PM] ummuhanna1: i think there's a way
[4/5/2011 1:10:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already told u one way
[4/5/2011 1:11:38 PM] ummuhanna1: i read on the net that it is ok to travel to uzbek without having to stay in hotel
[4/5/2011 1:11:52 PM] ummuhanna1: a few people already testified
[4/5/2011 1:11:59 PM] ummuhanna1: allahu'alam
[4/5/2011 1:12:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: did they still have to register?
[4/5/2011 1:12:26 PM] ummuhanna1: yes.
[4/5/2011 1:12:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: how did they register?
[4/5/2011 1:13:06 PM] ummuhanna1: obtain temporary permit after arrival
[4/5/2011 1:13:10 PM] ummuhanna1: within 3 days
[4/5/2011 1:13:26 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: from which agency?
[4/5/2011 1:13:29 PM] ummuhanna1: state address where you want to stay
[4/5/2011 1:13:37 PM] ummuhanna1: no agency
[4/5/2011 1:13:49 PM] ummuhanna1: go direct to govt office i guess
[4/5/2011 1:13:55 PM] ummuhanna1: some said police station
[4/5/2011 1:14:23 PM] ummuhanna1: that's why i want you to find out more about this matter
[4/5/2011 1:14:33 PM] ummuhanna1: ask your aunty laa sayang
[4/5/2011 1:14:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already ask
[4/5/2011 1:14:55 PM] ummuhanna1: the one who talked to me through skype last time whem i was in penang
[4/5/2011 1:15:01 PM] ummuhanna1: waht she said
[4/5/2011 1:15:16 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: thats the one i talked
[4/5/2011 1:15:32 PM] ummuhanna1: is it true?
[4/5/2011 1:15:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i even call up ministry of foreign affairs
[4/5/2011 1:16:00 PM] ummuhanna1: no other way yopu mean?
[4/5/2011 1:18:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: the guy in ministry told me i can try to do invitation letter myself but he said it may take long time
[4/5/2011 1:18:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont think i can do it untill i get my passport anyway
[4/5/2011 1:19:02 PM] ummuhanna1: not you buat.suruh your mother buat untuk saya
[4/5/2011 1:19:14 PM] ummuhanna1: boleh ke
[4/5/2011 1:19:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont want my mother to deal with police
[4/5/2011 1:20:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she has to get the approval from ministry of internal affairs
[4/5/2011 1:20:43 PM] ummuhanna1: what about your uncles,brother in laws?
[4/5/2011 1:21:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont want to sk them
[4/5/2011 1:21:22 PM] ummuhanna1: so you really dont want me to come
[4/5/2011 1:21:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: dont say like that
[4/5/2011 1:21:48 PM] ummuhanna1: i have to say like that'
[4/5/2011 1:21:58 PM] ummuhanna1: because you havent tried hard enough
[4/5/2011 1:22:34 PM] ummuhanna1: you restraint yourself from getting other people's help
[4/5/2011 1:23:08 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont like asking for other ppl's help
[4/5/2011 1:25:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: for example i already asked someone long time ago to make a passport for me. now , not him but someone accusing me that i betrayed them.
[4/5/2011 1:25:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: that bcause of me they might be in trouble
[4/5/2011 1:26:21 PM] ummuhanna1: did u tell the name to the authority?
[4/5/2011 1:26:36 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not yet
[4/5/2011 1:26:47 PM] ummuhanna1: so why he is accusing you
[4/5/2011 1:26:57 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah knows
[4/5/2011 1:27:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: he said , i did already wrong
[4/5/2011 1:28:21 PM] ummuhanna1: did you actually said that
[4/5/2011 1:28:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[4/5/2011 1:28:46 PM] ummuhanna1: other people doesnt imply only to someone
[4/5/2011 1:28:58 PM] ummuhanna1: it can mean anyone
[4/5/2011 1:29:15 PM] ummuhanna1: anyway sayang
[4/5/2011 1:29:31 PM] ummuhanna1: now i understand the situation better
[4/5/2011 1:29:39 PM] ummuhanna1: so what shaal i d
[4/5/2011 1:29:40 PM] ummuhanna1: o now
[4/5/2011 1:29:50 PM] ummuhanna1: what shall i do now?
[4/5/2011 1:30:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: can u sell the car for 2K?
[4/5/2011 1:30:09 PM] ummuhanna1: no
[4/5/2011 1:30:13 PM] ummuhanna1: maybe 500
[4/5/2011 1:30:20 PM] ummuhanna1: i already asked
[4/5/2011 1:30:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ask who?
[4/5/2011 1:30:39 PM] ummuhanna1: asked the car dealer
[4/5/2011 1:31:00 PM] ummuhanna1: car engine ok but the body is teruk giler
[4/5/2011 1:31:16 PM] ummuhanna1: both doors cannot be locked
[4/5/2011 1:31:39 PM] ummuhanna1: so if orang nak beli pun kena repair,banyak kos
[4/5/2011 1:32:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be Damir wants to buy?
[4/5/2011 1:32:10 PM] ummuhanna1: no
[4/5/2011 1:32:17 PM] ummuhanna1: he's thinking to buy new car
[4/5/2011 1:32:24 PM] ummuhanna1: i just called him yesterday
[4/5/2011 1:32:34 PM] ummuhanna1: he already submitted new application
[4/5/2011 1:32:48 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: how much your gold jewlery can be sold for?
[4/5/2011 1:32:57 PM] ummuhanna1: i was surprised
[4/5/2011 1:33:01 PM] ummuhanna1: very little
[4/5/2011 1:33:26 PM] ummuhanna1: i also asked the jewellery shop yesterday
[4/5/2011 1:33:49 PM | Edited 1:34:48 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if u plan to sell then try to look for direct consumer
[4/5/2011 1:33:52 PM] ummuhanna1: price now is RM153 but to sell back they cut 45%
[4/5/2011 1:34:00 PM] ummuhanna1: 153 per gram
[4/5/2011 1:34:11 PM] ummuhanna1: i can only get maybe around 800
[4/5/2011 1:34:21 PM] ummuhanna1: actual is rm1500
[4/5/2011 1:34:51 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[4/5/2011 1:34:59 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont want to stay in a hotel
[4/5/2011 1:35:13 PM] ummuhanna1: and i dont want to go under business visa
[4/5/2011 1:35:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 1:35:24 PM] ummuhanna1: it's too costly
[4/5/2011 1:35:42 PM] ummuhanna1: unless like what you said wait for your invitation letter
[4/5/2011 1:35:53 PM] ummuhanna1: i rather wait than waste money
[4/5/2011 1:36:07 PM] ummuhanna1: i have enough for air fare
[4/5/2011 1:36:20 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok , lets be patient then
[4/5/2011 1:36:42 PM] ummuhanna1: you can start write the letter now
[4/5/2011 1:36:58 PM] ummuhanna1: will they accept if you go see them?
[4/5/2011 1:37:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[4/5/2011 1:37:19 PM] ummuhanna1: you should try?
[4/5/2011 1:37:45 PM] ummuhanna1: they already know your passport are witheld by the authority
[4/5/2011 1:38:00 PM] ummuhanna1: so no harm trying
[4/5/2011 1:38:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: who they?
[4/5/2011 1:38:07 PM] ummuhanna1: why u want waste time
[4/5/2011 1:38:12 PM] ummuhanna1: the authority laa
[4/5/2011 1:38:26 PM] ummuhanna1: you said kena liase dengan police
[4/5/2011 1:38:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[4/5/2011 1:38:46 PM] ummuhanna1: so
[4/5/2011 1:39:08 PM] ummuhanna1: perhaps you could just write straight away
[4/5/2011 1:39:34 PM] ummuhanna1: you think you could that?
[4/5/2011 1:39:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think i will not liase with police
[4/5/2011 1:40:04 PM] ummuhanna1: there you go again
[4/5/2011 1:40:20 PM] ummuhanna1: so how are we going to solve this matter sayang
[4/5/2011 1:40:31 PM] ummuhanna1: dont be selfish
[4/5/2011 1:41:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be if i go to Dubai u can come there laa , sayang
[4/5/2011 1:41:41 PM] ummuhanna1: same problem
[4/5/2011 1:42:03 PM] ummuhanna1: i cant go without having marriage certificate,can i?
[4/5/2011 1:42:19 PM] ummuhanna1: where am i going to stay?
[4/5/2011 1:42:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: with me
[4/5/2011 1:42:40 PM] ummuhanna1: you should plan ahead of time sayng
[4/5/2011 1:42:56 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont think i can go justt like that
[4/5/2011 1:43:07 PM] ummuhanna1: im not comfortable anymore
[4/5/2011 1:43:36 PM] ummuhanna1: more so in Dubai where stricter law are observed
[4/5/2011 1:43:56 PM] ummuhanna1: you tak boleh buat main perkara ni
[4/5/2011 1:44:06 PM] ummuhanna1: it's very serious
[4/5/2011 1:44:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i don t think Dubai is strict on couples
[4/5/2011 1:44:48 PM] ummuhanna1: i cant say that for i have no knowledge about their rules and regulations
[4/5/2011 1:44:58 PM] ummuhanna1: actually i really wanted to go uzbek
[4/5/2011 1:45:08 PM] ummuhanna1: i want to go for vacation
[4/5/2011 1:45:15 PM] ummuhanna1: it's a big break for me
[4/5/2011 1:45:20 PM] ummuhanna1: you dont understand
[4/5/2011 1:45:31 PM] ummuhanna1: im too old to wait that long
[4/5/2011 1:45:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i understand
[4/5/2011 1:45:37 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont htink so
[4/5/2011 1:46:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already told u the express way
[4/5/2011 1:46:32 PM] ummuhanna1: what do you mean express way?
[4/5/2011 1:46:38 PM] ummuhanna1: go there and die
[4/5/2011 1:46:46 PM] ummuhanna1: and never return
[4/5/2011 1:47:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i mean pay extra money
[4/5/2011 1:47:23 PM] ummuhanna1: i cant afford
[4/5/2011 1:47:34 PM] ummuhanna1: just enough for air ticket
[4/5/2011 1:47:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 1:47:55 PM] ummuhanna1: perhap you could ask about the private home
[4/5/2011 1:48:07 PM] ummuhanna1: it cost around USD100
[4/5/2011 1:48:13 PM] ummuhanna1: per month
[4/5/2011 1:48:15 PM] ummuhanna1: not bad
[4/5/2011 1:48:42 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already asked. i was told tourist is not allowed to stay in aprivate home
[4/5/2011 1:49:09 PM] ummuhanna1: why then you think website tu semua cakap bohong lah
[4/5/2011 1:49:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u can go tto uzbek embassy and ask them
[4/5/2011 1:49:29 PM] ummuhanna1: private home yang kena bayar bukan free
[4/5/2011 1:49:44 PM] ummuhanna1: macam cheap accomadation
[4/5/2011 1:50:06 PM] ummuhanna1: did you read the website
[4/5/2011 1:52:06 PM] ummuhanna1: tourist visa which is valid to private home for 30days,perhaps this kind of long stay can g
[4/5/2011 1:52:17 PM] ummuhanna1: go to private hoome
[4/5/2011 1:52:39 PM] ummuhanna1: can you call and ask again
[4/5/2011 1:52:47 PM] ummuhanna1: that's what i read on the net
[4/5/2011 1:52:57 PM] ummuhanna1: it must be 30 days or more
[4/5/2011 1:53:00 PM] ummuhanna1: im not sure
[4/5/2011 1:54:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be u cab write to that website?
[4/5/2011 1:54:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: can
[4/5/2011 1:55:27 PM] ummuhanna1: i want you to ask the ministry of internal affairs whether they allowed such rulin
[4/5/2011 1:55:36 PM] ummuhanna1: maybe website tu tipu
[4/5/2011 1:55:48 PM] ummuhanna1: ambil duit kemudian nothing happen
[4/5/2011 1:56:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i al ready called the ministry of foreign affairs
[4/5/2011 1:56:16 PM] ummuhanna1: yesyou called
[4/5/2011 1:56:40 PM] ummuhanna1: but you further add that if a tourist stay for 30 days
[4/5/2011 1:56:54 PM] ummuhanna1: do they allow or not
[4/5/2011 1:57:07 PM] ummuhanna1: tell them tourist from malaysia
[4/5/2011 1:57:36 PM] ummuhanna1: different country have different rulings
[4/5/2011 1:57:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: listen , embassy of uzbekistan in KL should know all these
[4/5/2011 1:58:01 PM] ummuhanna1: ok then
[4/5/2011 1:58:15 PM] ummuhanna1: i ask damir to call on my behalf
[4/5/2011 1:58:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 1:58:59 PM] ummuhanna1: he said he has a friend working there
[4/5/2011 1:59:21 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang i want to ask you something
[4/5/2011 1:59:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 1:59:35 PM] ummuhanna1: dont be mad ok
[4/5/2011 1:59:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 2:00:42 PM] ummuhanna1: what do you do all day long and what do you do all night long?what im trying to say is how you spent your entire day there?tell me abit
[4/5/2011 2:01:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i sleep, i eat, walk around , read books
[4/5/2011 2:01:37 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: we have a yard i walk there
[4/5/2011 2:01:55 PM] ummuhanna1: you tak buat gardening ke?
[4/5/2011 2:02:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i made a pull up bar , i do pull ups now
[4/5/2011 2:02:17 PM] ummuhanna1: pull up bars for what
[4/5/2011 2:02:28 PM] ummuhanna1: push ups or pull ups
[4/5/2011 2:02:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: for excerize , remember we made in our flats
[4/5/2011 2:03:01 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[4/5/2011 2:03:07 PM] ummuhanna1: you dah kurus ke
[4/5/2011 2:03:19 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: tak
[4/5/2011 2:03:36 PM] ummuhanna1: eat slee take shit
[4/5/2011 2:03:39 PM] ummuhanna1: sleep
[4/5/2011 2:03:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: something like that
[4/5/2011 2:04:08 PM] ummuhanna1: onajon is pleased with you sayang
[4/5/2011 2:04:14 PM] ummuhanna1: //
[4/5/2011 2:04:17 PM] ummuhanna1: ??
[4/5/2011 2:04:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[4/5/2011 2:04:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she cooks for me all the time
[4/5/2011 2:05:05 PM] ummuhanna1: actually i already bought gifts for her
[4/5/2011 2:05:24 PM] ummuhanna1: i also bought new colorful tudung for me
[4/5/2011 2:05:46 PM] ummuhanna1: nevermind
[4/5/2011 2:06:19 PM] ummuhanna1: biiznillah one of these days i might go
[4/5/2011 2:06:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: inshaAllah
[4/5/2011 2:07:00 PM] ummuhanna1: if you dapat pasport
[4/5/2011 2:07:08 PM] ummuhanna1: you nak pergi Dubaikan
[4/5/2011 2:07:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes i want to go there
[4/5/2011 2:07:40 PM] ummuhanna1: but you said you must get sticker for travelling abroad
[4/5/2011 2:07:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[4/5/2011 2:07:53 PM] ummuhanna1: that one take how long
[4/5/2011 2:08:02 PM] ummuhanna1: agak2la
[4/5/2011 2:08:06 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: 2 weeks
[4/5/2011 2:08:55 PM] ummuhanna1: i would like you to stay in uzbek until i datang boleh ke
[4/5/2011 2:09:57 PM] ummuhanna1: i prefer uzbek to Dubai for vacation
[4/5/2011 2:10:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u check the registration thing 1st
[4/5/2011 2:10:35 PM] ummuhanna1: registration ??
[4/5/2011 2:10:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: see , u still seem dont understand the matter
[4/5/2011 2:11:02 PM] ummuhanna1: im sorry
[4/5/2011 2:11:19 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: foreigners enterring the uzbekistan must regsiter themselves
[4/5/2011 2:11:32 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaAllah
[4/5/2011 2:11:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: be it in hotel or private houses
[4/5/2011 2:11:47 PM] ummuhanna1: i understand
[4/5/2011 2:12:42 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaallah if they say boleh,then i try to come sonnest possible
[4/5/2011 2:12:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: good
[4/5/2011 2:13:04 PM] ummuhanna1: do i need to bring exra cash?
[4/5/2011 2:13:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no need
[4/5/2011 2:13:28 PM] ummuhanna1: nanti nak jalan2
[4/5/2011 2:13:32 PM] ummuhanna1: you ada duit ke
[4/5/2011 2:13:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ada
[4/5/2011 2:13:44 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[4/5/2011 2:13:48 PM] ummuhanna1: who gave you?
[4/5/2011 2:13:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u
[4/5/2011 2:14:01 PM] ummuhanna1: belum habis lagi ke
[4/5/2011 2:14:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: blm
[4/5/2011 2:14:11 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaallah
[4/5/2011 2:14:17 PM] ummuhanna1: im shocked
[4/5/2011 2:14:36 PM] ummuhanna1: i spent rm50 in a single day
[4/5/2011 2:14:44 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: for what?
[4/5/2011 2:15:05 PM] ummuhanna1: what i meant is you pandai save duit but not for me
[4/5/2011 2:15:11 PM] ummuhanna1: beli barangs
[4/5/2011 2:15:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: do u spend like that everyday?
[4/5/2011 2:15:25 PM] ummuhanna1: top up kredit RM30
[4/5/2011 2:15:31 PM] ummuhanna1: not really laa
[4/5/2011 2:15:33 PM] ummuhanna1:  sayng
[4/5/2011 2:15:49 PM] ummuhanna1: i just got money from tailoring
[4/5/2011 2:15:52 PM] ummuhanna1: baju kurung
[4/5/2011 2:15:59 PM] ummuhanna1: so i spent a bit on  myself
[4/5/2011 2:16:09 PM] ummuhanna1: a little bit for onajon
[4/5/2011 2:16:19 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 2:16:25 PM] ummuhanna1: you want anything from here
[4/5/2011 2:16:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sayang we talk about it when u r clear to come
[4/5/2011 2:16:58 PM] ummuhanna1: i have to plan laa sayang
[4/5/2011 2:17:10 PM] ummuhanna1: not enough time already
[4/5/2011 2:17:17 PM] ummuhanna1: just say laa
[4/5/2011 2:17:24 PM] ummuhanna1: no big deal
[4/5/2011 2:17:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: coconut cookies, not bisquits liek last time
[4/5/2011 2:18:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: and local cofe
[4/5/2011 2:18:08 PM] ummuhanna1: if i happen to go out with my children shopping..i can buy sikit2
[4/5/2011 2:18:11 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[4/5/2011 2:18:17 PM] ummuhanna1: i was thinking the same thing
[4/5/2011 2:18:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: do u know the diffence bw the 2
[4/5/2011 2:18:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: cookies and bisquits
[4/5/2011 2:18:52 PM] ummuhanna1: not really
[4/5/2011 2:18:59 PM] ummuhanna1: tell me
[4/5/2011 2:19:08 PM] ummuhanna1: is it written on the packet
[4/5/2011 2:19:23 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: some super markets dont have the cookies
[4/5/2011 2:19:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: its written yes
[4/5/2011 2:19:34 PM] ummuhanna1: oklaa
[4/5/2011 2:19:38 PM] ummuhanna1: saya cuba cari
[4/5/2011 2:21:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u can also look for products in clearance section whateve product as long as a good bargain u can buy and bring to us like coffe
[4/5/2011 2:21:16 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaallah
[4/5/2011 2:21:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: like we did when Bahrom came , remmebre?
[4/5/2011 2:21:35 PM] ummuhanna1: yes
[4/5/2011 2:21:50 PM] ummuhanna1: promise me something
[4/5/2011 2:21:56 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what
[4/5/2011 2:22:24 PM] ummuhanna1: if you dapat passpot soon can you write LOI for me
[4/5/2011 2:22:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i cannot promise that
[4/5/2011 2:22:58 PM] ummuhanna1: you really break my heart sayang
[4/5/2011 2:23:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im sorry
[4/5/2011 2:23:23 PM] ummuhanna1: i want to go now
[4/5/2011 2:23:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 2:23:37 PM] ummuhanna1: please send my salam to onajon
[4/5/2011 2:23:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[4/5/2011 2:23:47 PM] ummuhanna1: assalamualaikum

A sad ending...

Assalamu alaikum
[2:34:56 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[2:35:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no mic
[2:35:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no speaker
[2:35:25 PM] ummuhanna1: assalamualaikum
[2:35:55 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[2:35:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: only texting
[2:36:44 PM] ummuhanna1: waalaikumsalam
[2:36:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: r u typing
[2:37:10 PM] ummuhanna1: y r u so late?
[2:37:43 PM] ummuhanna1: can u read my text message?
[2:38:25 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang r u still there?
[2:38:31 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: now only i see yr texting
[2:38:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[2:38:53 PM] ummuhanna1: yelaa
[2:39:12 PM] ummuhanna1: tadi tunggu lama sangat saya turun bawah
[2:39:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok sori
[2:39:42 PM] ummuhanna1: im having bad running nose now
[2:40:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see
[2:40:05 PM] ummuhanna1: u ok?
[2:40:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m ok
[2:40:20 PM] ummuhanna1: onajon
[2:40:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she went to a wedding party today
[2:40:57 PM] ummuhanna1: she seems to be busy with her life
[2:41:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: it just sounds nice
[2:41:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: but in a reality its not how as it sounds
[2:42:07 PM] ummuhanna1: why you said like that in reality what do u mean by that?
[2:42:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she goes only so that ppl wont be upset with her
[2:43:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she does not realy enjoy all that parties
[2:43:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: and ppl do those kenduries also so that other ppl wont be upset with them
[2:44:18 PM] ummuhanna1: actually kenduri is good
[2:44:44 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ppl worry about what ppl think about them more than they worry about what Allah thinks about them
[2:44:51 PM] ummuhanna1: in arabic it's called walimah
[2:45:23 PM] ummuhanna1: these ppl have limited knowledge or totally ignorant
[2:45:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: exactly
[2:45:49 PM] ummuhanna1: dnt wori mch abt them
[2:46:09 PM] ummuhanna1: i think onajon is doing the right thing
[2:46:27 PM] ummuhanna1: it;s more of bothers and sisters in islam
[2:46:41 PM] ummuhanna1: caring for each other
[2:47:01 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: but i think 99% dont pray
[2:47:27 PM] ummuhanna1: tht need to be addressed by the ruler
[2:47:44 PM] ummuhanna1: we can only remind them
[2:48:01 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[2:48:06 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[2:48:07 PM] ummuhanna1: u said about selling hp
[2:48:20 PM] ummuhanna1: dah cakap dengan bahrom ke?
[2:48:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: blm
[2:49:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m afraid my number cannot be reached from overseas sometimes
[2:49:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i sms ed him to call me but no call yet
[2:49:58 PM] ummuhanna1: send email to him today
[2:50:06 PM] ummuhanna1: since u r online
[2:50:25 PM] ummuhanna1: by the way did u read my email?
[2:50:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im reading it now
[2:52:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: okfinish
[2:52:47 PM] ummuhanna1: u still remember
[2:53:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes off course
[2:53:48 PM] ummuhanna1: u still plan to go to madinah?
[2:54:08 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not like plan but more like a dream
[2:54:37 PM] ummuhanna1: May Allah swt realised your dream,ameen
[2:54:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: inshaAllah via Dubai settle in Madinah
[2:54:46 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaAllah
[2:55:16 PM] ummuhanna1: I dream of going there too
[2:55:32 PM] ummuhanna1: no passport news yet?
[2:55:48 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: they are silent
[2:56:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be they are investigating the oficers who issued my passport more than me actually
[2:56:46 PM] ummuhanna1: u think they the officer concerned?
[2:56:53 PM] ummuhanna1: they found
[2:57:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i was told that they already called up the one who was a chief of that department
[2:58:11 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: during those times
[2:58:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: 2004
[2:58:29 PM] ummuhanna1: oh maybe they thought that guy was involved?
[2:58:40 PM] ummuhanna1: 2004 seem long time ago
[2:58:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[2:59:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: the guy is already in pension
[2:59:10 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[2:59:24 PM] ummuhanna1: at least they wont fired him
[2:59:31 PM] ummuhanna1: no chance i mean
[2:59:48 PM] ummuhanna1: he helped ur uncle?
[2:59:58 PM] ummuhanna1: was he the one?
[3:00:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sayang, what ever it was , the chief is answerable
[3:00:50 PM] ummuhanna1: May Allah protect you,ameen
[3:01:02 PM] ummuhanna1: and unlce mirshod too.ameen
[3:01:30 PM] ummuhanna1: now sudah April tau
[3:01:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[3:01:47 PM] ummuhanna1: time flies isnt it?
[3:01:58 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i want to call Gairat later today
[3:02:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: time flies
[3:02:15 PM] ummuhanna1: and jamaliah is silent too
[3:02:22 PM] ummuhanna1: shud i sms to her?
[3:02:36 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[3:02:48 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaAllah i sms  2nite
[3:03:20 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what kinda lock u use to lock the penang flat?
[3:03:47 PM] ummuhanna1: our lock laa yang ambil dekat tesco tuu
[3:03:58 PM] ummuhanna1: but bila pindah rumah
[3:04:06 PM] ummuhanna1: i didnt lock the grill
[3:04:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u should lock it with kinda lock which she dont have the key for
[3:05:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: then tell kak Leili not give the key till she hands the money she owes
[3:05:23 PM] ummuhanna1: i think that is not the right way to tackle this prob
[3:05:26 PM] ummuhanna1: anyway
[3:05:32 PM] ummuhanna1: she already took the key
[3:05:48 PM] ummuhanna1: long time ago from kak Laili's children
[3:06:00 PM] ummuhanna1: Kak laili was not at home it seem
[3:06:25 PM] ummuhanna1: I told kak Laili to give her the bills but
[3:06:48 PM] ummuhanna1: since she collected from the children they didnt give her the bills
[3:07:12 PM] ummuhanna1: now she told me she wanted to check the latest bills
[3:07:24 PM] ummuhanna1: by now shud have new one
[3:07:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: anyway
[3:07:49 PM] ummuhanna1: yes
[3:07:58 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i cannot help u sori
[3:08:05 PM] ummuhanna1: i understand
[3:08:14 PM] ummuhanna1: she's a tough woman to handle
[3:08:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: tough my ass
[3:08:27 PM] ummuhanna1: May allah make it easy 4 me,ameen
[3:08:42 PM] ummuhanna1: u never spek to her
[3:08:55 PM] ummuhanna1: u dont understand how she manipulate things
[3:09:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if u have the force , use it.
[3:09:44 PM] ummuhanna1: problem is we dont have balck and white
[3:09:54 PM] ummuhanna1: no prove
[3:09:59 PM] ummuhanna1: that i paid her 200
[3:10:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: well u can go and do some 200 ringgit worth of demage to her house
[3:10:44 PM] ummuhanna1: im here sayng
[3:11:05 PM] ummuhanna1: your suggestion now is not reachable
[3:11:21 PM] ummuhanna1: i need money to save
[3:11:43 PM] ummuhanna1: i already ask hafiza to pay me back rm300
[3:11:59 PM] ummuhanna1: she said she's try to pay half first
[3:12:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: did u give any wedding present to her ?
[3:12:21 PM] ummuhanna1: yes
[3:12:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: tv?
[3:12:35 PM] ummuhanna1: i bought her big table fan
[3:12:41 PM] ummuhanna1: that too
[3:12:43 PM] ummuhanna1: tv
[3:13:00 PM] ummuhanna1: i want to give her our fan too
[3:13:13 PM] ummuhanna1: she's anice girl
[3:13:27 PM] ummuhanna1: now she jage her prayers
[3:13:32 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[3:13:40 PM] ummuhanna1: and wear tudung too
[3:13:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: big one?
[3:14:02 PM] ummuhanna1: no biasa
[3:14:19 PM] ummuhanna1: not like mine
[3:14:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: by the way if u come to uzbek i want u to wear small colourful tudung
[3:15:04 PM] ummuhanna1: why is that???????????
[3:15:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: do u still have no idea about what hapopening in uzbekistan????
[3:15:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: they might take straight to jail from airport
[3:16:07 PM] ummuhanna1: u mean even for tourists?
[3:16:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be
[3:16:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if not u , may be take me
[3:16:45 PM] ummuhanna1: i understand
[3:16:49 PM] ummuhanna1: dont wori
[3:16:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: when they see me with u
[3:17:40 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaAllah,it the right time comes,I'll ask u what to bring,what to wear and all those staff that I need to know
[3:17:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[3:18:12 PM] ummuhanna1: BUT for nor i dont have any color tudung
[3:18:20 PM] ummuhanna1: so i need to buy some laa
[3:18:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: dont buy yet
[3:18:34 PM] ummuhanna1: bukan sekarang laa
[3:18:46 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaallah next month
[3:18:55 PM] ummuhanna1: in May
[3:18:58 PM] ummuhanna1: sayng
[3:19:04 PM] ummuhanna1: now is durian season
[3:19:12 PM] ummuhanna1: banyak durian by the roadsides
[3:19:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see
[3:19:38 PM] ummuhanna1: mae me remember you
[3:19:40 PM] ummuhanna1: make
[3:19:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see
[3:19:51 PM] ummuhanna1: makan durian last year
[3:20:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: r u eating yet?
[3:20:31 PM] ummuhanna1: sudah makan adn alhamdulillah sudah pray zuhr
[3:20:45 PM] ummuhanna1: r u hungry sayng
[3:20:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what u mean?
[3:21:21 PM] ummuhanna1: i mean belum makan apa-apa lagi ke dari pagi tadi?
[3:21:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i want to go in 9 minits time
[3:21:37 PM] ummuhanna1: u always in a hurry
[3:21:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sikit sikit cukup laa
[3:22:13 PM] ummuhanna1: cakap saja dah boring kan
[3:22:20 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ye
[3:22:28 PM] ummuhanna1: tak kisah i go now
[3:22:33 PM] ummuhanna1: assalamualaikum
[3:22:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u upset
[3:22:42 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ??
[3:22:58 PM] *** Call ended, duration 48:02 ***
AbdulAziz bin abi

Akajon N Me on Skype Today

[1:01:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: can u hear me?\
[1:01:39 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i can hear u
[1:02:14 PM] ummuhanna1: you have cam
[1:03:00 PM] *** Call ended, duration 01:54 ***
[1:03:20 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[1:03:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no mic no cam
[1:04:04 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[1:04:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: h r u?
[1:04:31 PM] ummuhanna1: can u hear me
[1:04:41 PM] ummuhanna1: im ok alhamdulillah
[1:04:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no speaker
[1:04:54 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[1:05:12 PM] ummuhanna1: how's yesterday meeting?
[1:05:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not much
[1:05:57 PM] ummuhanna1: what they asked you?
[1:06:02 PM] ummuhanna1: im very curious
[1:06:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: who made the pasportfor me?
[1:06:41 PM] ummuhanna1: did you tell them?
[1:06:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not really
[1:07:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my uncle say " if u can dont tell them"
[1:07:32 PM] ummuhanna1: did you read email i sent u?
[1:07:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ow i m reading
[1:08:55 PM] ummuhanna1: r u done yet?
[1:09:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no
[1:09:07 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[1:13:18 PM] ummuhanna1: belum habis baca lagi ke?
[1:13:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: blm
[1:15:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok dah
[1:16:00 PM] ummuhanna1: u can replay after u done here
[1:16:04 PM] ummuhanna1: reply
[1:16:26 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: see la  how
[1:16:32 PM] ummuhanna1: you malas laa
[1:17:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what exactly imortant u asked in this emails?
[1:17:39 PM] ummuhanna1: r u ready to go anytime?
[1:18:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: well i no passport
[1:18:31 PM] ummuhanna1: so my q is if you have r u ready to go
[1:19:20 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if i have pasport i need a sticker in my passport which says i m allowed to leave abroad
[1:20:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if i cannot get that then i need to cross the border in secret , may be to kazakistan via land then try to fly to dubai
[1:20:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: which is risky
[1:21:01 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: they might catch in action, so its not easy decision to make , sayang
[1:21:23 PM] ummuhanna1: the sticker you r talking about
[1:21:39 PM] ummuhanna1: is it difficult to be approved?
[1:21:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:23:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: a possible scenario :  i get convicted of a crime for my passport then no approval to leave the country
[1:24:05 PM] ummuhanna1: will they put yoi in jail?
[1:24:36 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[1:25:23 PM] ummuhanna1: let say if you tell them the truth wil it change anything?
[1:25:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[1:26:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already promise to my uncle not to tell
[1:26:19 PM] ummuhanna1: anyboby you know or heard being convicted of same crime?
[1:26:39 PM] ummuhanna1: anybody
[1:26:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont know
[1:27:00 PM] ummuhanna1: you should ask around
[1:27:08 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dotn want
[1:27:36 PM] ummuhanna1: then in this case is it better for you to find a job
[1:28:57 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: well i want to work
[1:29:09 PM] ummuhanna1: any offer yet?
[1:29:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not yet
[1:29:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: they might refuse to hire coz no passport
[1:30:58 PM] ummuhanna1: i know this is a very painful experience for you
[1:31:17 PM] ummuhanna1: even in your country you cant apply for job
[1:31:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: and more painfull is to be refused to enter Paradise
[1:32:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m not suprised
[1:32:52 PM] ummuhanna1: me either
[1:33:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allah promised to test those who say we believe
[1:33:51 PM] ummuhanna1: i reminded myself of that beautiful verses in Quran,the one I email
[1:34:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: last verses of baqara?
[1:34:22 PM] ummuhanna1: naam
[1:37:11 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah tested those that only can tahan going through that test..in your case,Allah is testing you like this ..insyaallah you would be rewarded for your holding strong to your deen
[1:38:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i hope from Allah
[1:38:28 PM] ummuhanna1: hope comes with fear as well
[1:38:44 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[1:38:54 PM] ummuhanna1: onajan sihat?
[1:39:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i should fear Allah and only Him
[1:39:26 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: onajon is ok
[1:39:38 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah Akbar
[1:39:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my father always scoll my mother
[1:39:56 PM] ummuhanna1: itu cerita lama
[1:40:22 PM] ummuhanna1: i think he's been scolding onajon from your childhood dys..
[1:40:49 PM] ummuhanna1: i really pity onajon
[1:41:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: he even beat my mother before
[1:42:07 PM] ummuhanna1: May Allah swt protect you and onajon from your father misconduct,ameen
[1:42:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ameen
[1:42:55 PM] ummuhanna1: have you sit down with your father and talk?
[1:43:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont want to talk
[1:44:26 PM] ummuhanna1: you must at least protect onajon from being harassed and beaten by him.
[1:45:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: when he says bad things to my mother i just keep quite
[1:46:22 PM] ummuhanna1: Ask Allah swt to give you the strength to be able to give nasihat to your father with wisdom.
[1:47:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i brought some books full of wisdom to the house . he is reading them
[1:47:21 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaAllah
[1:47:33 PM] ummuhanna1: is it in uzbek or russian?
[1:47:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: uzbek
[1:47:51 PM] ummuhanna1: you know something?
[1:48:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: wat
[1:48:27 PM] ummuhanna1: i really feel like meeting your father and sit dwon with him  and talk
[1:48:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what ever
[1:49:01 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont have a father since young
[1:49:12 PM] ummuhanna1: my father passes away
[1:49:18 PM] ummuhanna1: passed
[1:49:30 PM] ummuhanna1: sorry if i said something wrong here
[1:49:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i wish my father dies soon
[1:49:52 PM] ummuhanna1: it's just only a thought that crosses my mind
[1:50:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i know
[1:50:19 PM] ummuhanna1: Ask for the best for him
[1:50:29 PM] ummuhanna1: you dont know
[1:51:23 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if its best for me for him to die then i want him dead
[1:51:32 PM] ummuhanna1: Through you Allah might make his heart softer and become a better slave
[1:52:05 PM] ummuhanna1: You are saying with heart full of hatred
[1:52:16 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: I hope Allah reward me
[1:52:32 PM] ummuhanna1: Ameen
[1:52:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i feel the hatred from my father towards my mother
[1:52:56 PM] ummuhanna1: I can understand tthat
[1:53:28 PM] ummuhanna1: Has he ever beaten you b4?
[1:53:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:54:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: his words are more painfull to me than his beating
[1:54:26 PM] ummuhanna1: you told me that too
[1:54:38 PM] ummuhanna1: about you not being his son
[1:55:06 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: there are many other words which are may be even more painfull
[1:55:23 PM] ummuhanna1: he's and old man dying anytime soon
[1:55:34 PM] ummuhanna1: please have some mercy on him
[1:55:47 PM] ummuhanna1: forgive his past actions
[1:56:22 PM] ummuhanna1: the rest leave it to Allah swt
[1:56:44 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think i want to go now
[1:56:59 PM] ummuhanna1: why hurry
[1:57:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: its almost 1 hour
[1:57:15 PM] ummuhanna1: nak balik rumah ke?
[1:57:29 PM] ummuhanna1: not yet 1hr
[1:57:37 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: may be i want to meet my good friend
[1:57:53 PM] ummuhanna1: you c me first laa sayang
[1:58:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i already saw u just now
[1:58:14 PM] ummuhanna1: when
[1:58:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u mean cam ke?
[1:58:37 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta paya cam
[1:58:39 PM] ummuhanna1: ya
[1:58:50 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: why u want me to see ur picture?
[1:58:57 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont need to see ur picture
[1:59:01 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i love u
[1:59:02 PM] ummuhanna1: coz i want u to remeber me
[1:59:11 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: without looking at u
[1:59:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i dont need to see u to remmeber u
[1:59:39 PM] ummuhanna1: r u still there?
[2:00:06 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: r u there?
[2:00:08 PM] *** Call ended, duration 56:04 ***
[2:00:43 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[2:00:53 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[2:01:03 PM] ummuhanna1: nak pegi dah ke?
[2:01:39 PM] ummuhanna1: can you read my text message?
[2:01:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: [1:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi:

<<< i dont need to see u to remmeber u
[2:02:18 PM] ummuhanna1: at least i wanna smile
[2:02:30 PM] ummuhanna1: and show u my big teeth
[2:02:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta paya
[2:02:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ada ramai org kat sisni
[2:03:07 PM] ummuhanna1: r u going to tashkent?
[2:03:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta faham ke?
[2:03:13 PM] ummuhanna1: faham
[2:03:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m waiting for investigation
[2:03:39 PM] ummuhanna1: ic
[2:04:05 PM] ummuhanna1: i might go there in May
[2:04:13 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[2:04:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: inshaAllah
[2:04:21 PM] ummuhanna1: i try to save some money now
[2:04:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[2:04:32 PM] ummuhanna1: is it ok with u?
[2:04:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes. only i hope i will be free to meet u
[2:05:24 PM] ummuhanna1: insyaallah i have to correspond to you first b4 i decide
[2:05:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sure
[2:05:43 PM] ummuhanna1: if not no point going there at all
[2:05:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: off course
[2:06:28 PM] ummuhanna1: i pray and make dua for all of us
[2:06:53 PM] ummuhanna1: there's wisdom behind all these happenings.
[2:07:04 PM] ummuhanna1: so,be patient..
[2:07:15 PM] ummuhanna1: i love u sayang
[2:07:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i love u too
[2:07:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[2:07:30 PM] ummuhanna1: i go now
[2:07:37 PM] ummuhanna1: ok assalamualaikum
[2:07:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: waalaikum assalaam
[2:08:01 PM] *** Call ended, duration 07:18 ***

A little conversation with Akajon..

[3/8/2011 2:57:03 PM] *** Call ended, duration 55:51 ***
[12:48:09 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[12:58:18 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[12:58:50 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[1:07:45 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi, no answer. ***
[1:08:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: hello
[1:08:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no mic
[1:08:35 PM] ummuhanna1: so sad
[1:08:46 PM] ummuhanna1: no video too
[1:08:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no
[1:09:17 PM] ummuhanna1: can you see me
[1:09:19 PM] ummuhanna1: if i on
[1:09:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: try
[1:09:35 PM] *** Call to AbdulAziz bin abi ***
[1:10:07 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes i saw u
[1:10:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: then i quickle off it coz many ppl around
[1:10:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: im in cafe
[1:10:57 PM] ummuhanna1: do yoy have any other computer with mic and video there
[1:11:04 PM] ummuhanna1: you
[1:11:27 PM] ummuhanna1: if you can see me that means you can on your video too
[1:11:43 PM] ummuhanna1: try to on your video for me
[1:11:46 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no cam
[1:11:56 PM] ummuhanna1: ic
[1:12:11 PM] ummuhanna1: you read my emails
[1:12:22 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:12:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Rustam Yuldashev
[1:12:39 PM] ummuhanna1: you know his family?
[1:12:57 PM] ummuhanna1: they lived in Tashkent
[1:13:09 PM] ummuhanna1: wealthy family
[1:13:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not yet
[1:13:22 PM] ummuhanna1: try to find out OK
[1:13:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i need to find out his father's name
[1:14:06 PM] ummuhanna1: if you go to facebook you might find some info there.many pics of his family
[1:14:10 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: so many Rustam Yuldashev in facebook which one
[1:14:30 PM] ummuhanna1: form USA
[1:14:38 PM] ummuhanna1: from USA
[1:14:59 PM] ummuhanna1: 24 years old
[1:15:04 PM] ummuhanna1: very young
[1:15:14 PM] ummuhanna1: attractive
[1:15:21 PM] ummuhanna1: tall
[1:16:05 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see
[1:17:43 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: if u know his facebook page adress just copy and send to me now
[1:18:01 PM] ummuhanna1: i try
[1:18:04 PM] ummuhanna1: wait
[1:18:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ainul Mardiah
[1:19:50 PM] ummuhanna1: yes
[1:20:02 PM] ummuhanna1: his wife
[1:20:09 PM] ummuhanna1: my exhusband's niece
[1:20:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok then i got his page
[1:20:27 PM] ummuhanna1: ok.take alook at his pics
[1:20:44 PM] ummuhanna1: family very beautiful
[1:20:53 PM] ummuhanna1: especially his sister
[1:20:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i cannot i  think i need to be friend with him 1st no?
[1:21:10 PM] ummuhanna1: i dont know
[1:21:14 PM] ummuhanna1: try laa
[1:21:23 PM] ummuhanna1: maryam can go in
[1:21:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: how u manage to see his pics
[1:21:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ?
[1:21:35 PM] ummuhanna1: through maryam facebook
[1:21:52 PM] ummuhanna1: log in to your facebook now
[1:22:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m
[1:22:07 PM] ummuhanna1: i sned his web address to you
[1:22:10 PM] ummuhanna1: send
[1:28:50 PM] ummuhanna1: anyway insyaallah i try to get his father's name for you
[1:28:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[1:29:08 PM] ummuhanna1: u ok sayang
[1:29:10 PM] ummuhanna1: any new
[1:29:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i wrote litle emails to u
[1:29:33 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sikit ja
[1:29:35 PM] ummuhanna1: jazakallah khairan
[1:29:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta banyak
[1:29:48 PM] ummuhanna1: tell me a bit about your father
[1:30:07 PM] ummuhanna1: how did he react upon seeing you
[1:30:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my father got drunk yesterday
[1:30:16 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaallah
[1:30:20 PM] ummuhanna1: any reason
[1:30:25 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m back
[1:30:33 PM] ummuhanna1: he's not happy or what
[1:30:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think his happy
[1:31:02 PM] ummuhanna1: how;d you know for sure
[1:31:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m just guessing
[1:31:42 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: he scolded me yesterday very badly
[1:32:44 PM] ummuhanna1: for not coming back sooner..?
[1:33:12 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: no , for not bringing my shoes from tashkent
[1:34:33 PM] ummuhanna1: I think he just used the shoes excuse to scold  you badly...he need to let go of his steam...dont feel bad
[1:34:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think he hates me
[1:35:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i tihnk he hates me and my moter nmy 3 sisters
[1:36:44 PM] ummuhanna1: he's not in his stable mind moreover I think he has very little iman in his heart.Give him time to sober..perhaps you both can sit down face to face when the right time comes..ask Allah to give you taufik and hidayah..
[1:37:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i hate hm too
[1:38:23 PM] ummuhanna1: dont show your hatred to him sayang.I think it's not good for you and the family.better way is for you to remain silent and be patient with him..i know it's very hard thing to do,but you must try
[1:38:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i see how
[1:39:30 PM] ummuhanna1: Allah is testing all of us...be it good or bad
[1:40:28 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allah is testing what w do at a given situation. Its a good reminder
[1:40:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: we
[1:41:07 PM] ummuhanna1: sayang
[1:41:24 PM] ummuhanna1: any news about your job applications?
[1:42:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: my father is trying to find a job for me in TAshkent
[1:42:57 PM] ummuhanna1: private or government?
[1:43:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: kinda private
[1:43:25 PM] ummuhanna1: is he staying with your mother in the same house in your hometown?
[1:44:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:44:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[1:44:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u ok?
[1:45:04 PM] ummuhanna1: why so fast
[1:45:19 PM] ummuhanna1: it's not even one hour yet
[1:45:31 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m already more than 1 hour in cc
[1:45:58 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: coz i read emails 1st b4 i talked to u in skype
[1:46:17 PM] ummuhanna1: onajon OK?
[1:46:45 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: she ok. she cooked rice pilaf semalam. sdap
[1:46:55 PM] ummuhanna1: masyaallah
[1:47:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: in a big dish
[1:47:10 PM] ummuhanna1: just like us
[1:47:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: we had a small kenduri
[1:47:27 PM] ummuhanna1: oh ic
[1:47:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: using wood in outdoors
[1:47:54 PM] ummuhanna1: surely the fod tasted better with burnt woods
[1:47:59 PM] ummuhanna1: food
[1:48:03 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: exactly
[1:48:14 PM] ummuhanna1: are you in town now?
[1:48:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:48:43 PM] ummuhanna1: naik bas ke taxi?
[1:48:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: jalankaki
[1:48:57 PM] ummuhanna1: ok
[1:49:15 PM] ummuhanna1: do you want to see me b4 you go?
[1:49:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[1:49:48 PM] ummuhanna1: you can see me
[1:49:52 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u off urself ke?
[1:49:57 PM] ummuhanna1: tak
[1:50:16 PM] ummuhanna1: nampak tak
[1:50:29 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: da
[1:50:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: dah nampak dah
[1:50:41 PM] ummuhanna1: i look ok to you
[1:50:47 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: es
[1:50:52 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[1:50:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes dont worry sayang
[1:51:20 PM] ummuhanna1: i must worry
[1:51:28 PM] ummuhanna1: you are far away and im here
[1:51:43 PM] ummuhanna1: i cant help it
[1:52:19 PM] ummuhanna1: maybe next time you find cc with mic and cam ok
[1:52:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok
[1:52:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: where r u?
[1:52:47 PM] ummuhanna1: the one that your mother used to go
[1:52:53 PM] ummuhanna1: im in malina's room
[1:53:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i m in that place now but they have only one mic and it was busy
[1:53:19 PM] ummuhanna1: im sleeping in her room also but on the floor
[1:53:45 PM] ummuhanna1: belilah satu
[1:53:52 PM] ummuhanna1: is it expensive?
[1:53:53 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: inshaAllah
[1:54:30 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: not really, but when u dont have money then ...
[1:54:47 PM] ummuhanna1: i understand sayang
[1:55:05 PM] ummuhanna1: hopefully Allah will increase our riz,ameen
[1:55:14 PM] ummuhanna1: rizk
[1:55:34 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Alhamdu li Allah
[1:55:36 PM] ummuhanna1: i try not to spend much here too
[1:55:58 PM] ummuhanna1: even top up i try to budget
[1:56:08 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[1:56:13 PM] ummuhanna1: i want to go see you in May insyaallah
[1:56:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ur sms es to me is expensive sayang
[1:56:32 PM] ummuhanna1: i know.
[1:56:39 PM] ummuhanna1: but it's worth it..
[1:58:12 PM] ummuhanna1: my mind wont be at ease if i did not hear from you...so,i sms and try to find out if you r ok or not...so,keep in touch is a good thing for me to do
[1:58:13 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: here i can buy sms packages like 70 sms for 3 usdollar
[1:58:44 PM] ummuhanna1: RM10 for 70 sms.mahal ke?
[1:59:17 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i think u pay 50 sen for one sms
[1:59:34 PM] ummuhanna1: yes,correct,correct,correct
[1:59:48 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: like for 20 sms u pay 10 ringgit
[1:59:57 PM] ummuhanna1: more or less
[2:00:31 PM] ummuhanna1: money is not worth that much compared to hearing from you..
[2:01:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: there are things money cant buy
[2:01:14 PM] ummuhanna1: like what?
[2:01:39 PM] ummuhanna1: money cant buy love?
[2:02:04 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: how is hanna?
[2:02:12 PM] ummuhanna1: she's upset with me
[2:02:23 PM] ummuhanna1: belum pegi sekolah
[2:02:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: wy?
[2:02:38 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: why upset?
[2:03:14 PM] ummuhanna1: the govvt didnt register her yet in any school.it seems the officer to approve her application not a round this week
[2:03:38 PM] ummuhanna1: next week school holidays.so,hanna cuti 3 minggu
[2:03:44 PM] ummuhanna1: dia marah saya
[2:04:09 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ta pay marah
[2:04:46 PM] ummuhanna1: anyway im happy to see her read quran after magrib every night
[2:04:59 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:05:00 PM] ummuhanna1: she's abit different from the rest
[2:05:09 PM] ummuhanna1: pray 5 times a day
[2:05:16 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:05:48 PM] ummuhanna1: that's a consolation for me
[2:05:54 PM] ummuhanna1: to stay in this house
[2:06:09 PM] ummuhanna1: and see her growing up
[2:06:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: and what a consolation it is !!!
[2:06:24 PM] ummuhanna1: allahu akabr
[2:06:28 PM] ummuhanna1: akbar
[2:06:35 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allahu Akbar
[2:06:36 PM] ummuhanna1: even na9 is changing
[2:06:42 PM] ummuhanna1: not like praying
[2:06:44 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:06:56 PM] ummuhanna1: but more to becoming like my frind now
[2:07:06 PM] ummuhanna1: like to listen to me and open up
[2:07:14 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: mashaAllah
[2:07:16 PM] ummuhanna1: even maryam
[2:07:22 PM] ummuhanna1: but the rest
[2:07:57 PM] ummuhanna1: may allah give them taufik and hidayah,ameen
[2:08:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u just do ur job the rest should not be ur concern
[2:08:48 PM] ummuhanna1: alhamdulillah
[2:08:51 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: ok sayang
[2:08:54 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[2:09:22 PM] ummuhanna1: now Allah is giving me the chance to do good to my children.One day I might not have the chance anymore
[2:09:32 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: exactly
[2:09:36 PM] ummuhanna1: I am thinking sayang
[2:09:49 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: what?
[2:09:58 PM] ummuhanna1: i think you already know
[2:10:16 PM] ummuhanna1: im thinking to leave them and stay with you
[2:10:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: sure
[2:10:34 PM] ummuhanna1: so i want to spend as much time with them as i could
[2:10:53 PM] ummuhanna1: i plan to migrate in December 2011
[2:11:15 PM] ummuhanna1: when i got my EPFmoney,biiznillah
[2:11:24 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: u will leave them one day anyway, may be b4 u even meet me
[2:11:55 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: so value the moments
[2:12:18 PM] ummuhanna1: we can only plan BUT Allah swt is the ultimate decision maker...
[2:12:31 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: Allahu Akabr
[2:12:48 PM] ummuhanna1: I ask for the best of this dunya and the best of aqirah,ameen
[2:13:14 PM] ummuhanna1: did you read the surah an nahl i sent you in emails?
[2:13:21 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: yes
[2:13:35 PM] ummuhanna1: it's a good reminder for all of us.
[2:13:41 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: off course
[2:14:02 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now sayang
[2:14:27 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i love u
[2:14:40 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: assalamu alaikum
[2:14:56 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: i go now
[2:15:07 PM] ummuhanna1: ok sayang
[2:15:18 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: be patient
[2:15:19 PM] ummuhanna1: waalaikumsalam
[2:15:36 PM] ummuhanna1: i know,it' very very hard and painful for me here
[2:15:51 PM] ummuhanna1: but i always ask allah to give me strength
[2:16:00 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: think about HELL
[2:16:15 PM] AbdulAziz bin abi: assalamu alaikum
[2:16:21 PM] ummuhanna1: waalaikumsalam
[2:16:28 PM] *** Call ended, duration 1:06:52 ***
AbdulAziz bin abi

I am in dilemma...

Today alhamdulillah is the second day I am teaching Hana English language.Akajon skyped with me around 2pm.I was so excited.But now after exchanging messages I realised that Akajon is not that serious about legalising my marriage to him.I felt very upset so much so that I couldnt speak to him for a while.Perhaps I am the one who is taking this thing too seriously without considering his problems there.nevertheless, I still wanted him to promise me to find out more details about this matter.I dont think I can go through like he went through recently.It's too painful for me,too straineous,so much of hardship and difficulties.Thinking about this also make my spine shivers.I cried a lot today thinking about my situation now.I am in dilemma whether to join Akajon there for good or come back here.Everthing seem to be blurry and uncertain.My idea is to be with him as a lawfully wedded wife and stay there with a valid visa, but his idea is totally opposite of mine.He rather want me to stay with him unregistered with the intention of residing there for the rest of my life..I cannot decide which direction I should go,it's too heavy on me to consider right now.This is not a game.This is reality.I pray to Allah swt to guide me to the straight path and not go astray, ameen.

Life is boring without you

Went breakfast with Hana,Milah,Sheda,Naufal and papa Hana.Then went to Tesco for weekly marketing.In the evening I went with Na9 to buy pasar malam food for dinner.Today,suddenly,I feel lonely and bored.Sent sms to Akajon.It seems that he is having a good time with his family and relatives whereas i am suffering here inside out,outside in.My children presence is not much of help to me,in fact I feel like I wanna disappear somewhere further away from everyone.I really need a break,a big break...