Trials and Tribulations

This month  is a month of test for me. My marriage seem to be a bit shaky. Akajon is interested to tie a knot with another woman soon. I have mixed feelings about this situation I am facing now. I felt pain in my heart. From his actions , I can tell that he is no longer physically attracted to me. Of late ,more attention to her and least attention to me. I have to accept the fact that I am old and he is still young. For whatever reasons he gave me to marry that woman, I will accept in good faith. All are in the hand of Allah .Yesterday he greeted  the woman at the KLIA airport. Akajon asked her whether I could tag along but The woman refused to see me . It is too soon she said. He already made preparation for  her accomodation prior to her arrival.  A Homestay is ready for occupation. Akajon will be busy entertaining that woman for the next two weeks. I will be left alone undisturbed.I guess my service is no longer needed . My marriage contract is nearing expiring date. I want to divert my my mind from thinking about this matter. I need to find something that will make my day passes by peacefully and at ease.I take this as a big test from Allah. Ya Allah..Ya Rabb.. make my heart steadfast to your deen and give me patience to go through this trials and tribulations. Forgive my sins Ya Allah..Forgive their sins Ya  Allah...Ameen Allahumma amin...